Abusive boyfriend...

[pensive pam]

Originally Posted by DanaC

You are very young to be 'stuck' in life. On the one hand that makes it worse, because you haven't had much time to learn the tricks of survival. On the other hand there is an advantage in that being 'stuck is pretty illusory when you are young.

About the only thing you can truly be sure of in life is that things change. You're at a very early stage of your journey and you are feeling defeated. There will be other stages of that journey where you'll feel triumph, or contentment.

The world is neither as bleak as your darkest moments would have you believe, nor as shiny as your brightest would have it.

Again, thank you for your kind words. I am still getting familar with this site. How did you know how to find me??? I've just been through so much tragedy in my life. My mother died while giving birth to me. I am working on forgiving myself, and it is the hardest thing to do. She gave her life, so that I could have mine. And now I realize that I am so miserable that she is the one that should have lived...not me. I recently took a flight, and I was actually hoping the plane would crash and kill me...