Am I a Mental Bitch?

Trilby · 01-09-2009, 09:09 AM

I need to know. What do you honestly think. I am feeling like I am a lousy human being just because...well, never mind. Am I mental? Am I the crazy woman? Am I a bitch? Some people are bitches SOME of the time. I hope that is me and I'm not a bitch ALL of the time----but, am I?

ETA this probably looks like marichiko attention whoring. maybe it is. so what?

Another ETA: I feel like Leona Helmsley or Ann Coulter. THAT is how bad I feel.

Shawnee123 · 01-09-2009, 09:14 AM

No no no Bri. You are you. YOu are sweet, and yet you don't take any crap. You make yourself feel lousy because of that pressure women can still get from society that standing up for yourself, or sometimes just being yourself, warrants the bitch label.

A bitch, to me, is someone who doesn't care about others, and likes to hurt others. You are so far from that you can't even see it with binoculars. You are a big hearted person with a huge capability of caring. So sometimes that hurts you...so you try to turn it inward and make yourself feel like you've done something wrong.

Granted, I have no idea what you were referring to, but this is my take on it in a general sense.

Sheldonrs · 01-09-2009, 09:14 AM

Is "bitch" a bad thing?

footfootfoot · 01-09-2009, 09:23 AM

Yeah, define "mental."

Shawnee123 · 01-09-2009, 09:27 AM

mental: footfootfoot

dar512 · 01-09-2009, 09:48 AM

Despite the very real connection, I don't think we really "know" each other online. If you want a valid opinion, you'd need to ask multiple people who know you IRL.

FWIW, you seem nice enough to me.

What made you start doubting yourself?

HungLikeJesus · 01-09-2009, 09:44 AM

No. If you were you would not care enough to ask.

footfootfoot · 01-09-2009, 09:52 AM

Have we had a thread where dwellars who know one another IRL compare online personas with cellar personas?

I am quite a bit different IRL than in the cellar, but not as different as Gwennie was.

Gwennie! · 01-30-2009, 12:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by footfootfoot

Have we had a thread where dwellars who know one another IRL compare online personas with cellar personas?

I am quite a bit different IRL than in the cellar, but not as different as Gwennie was.

Thank you for remembering me after all these years, 3 foots. I missed all of you and decided to see what's up here.

I finally came out of the closet IRL about 18 months ago. I am in early transition M->F. The trigger was not being able to do the mens' AA program. After another relapse, I decided to do AA as a female. It's been great and I finally got 1 year of sobriety.

I've been accepted into the lesbian fellowship in San Jose. I do everyday things with them such as movies, dinner, watching The L Word, moving and attended one wedding.

Now eligible for hormones, I am little afraid of this next step. I will be getting feminine voice/movement coaching soon. I've done laser on the beard and chest hair.

Thanks to everyone here for putting up with my nonsense as this forum was the place I started to come out of the closet.

xoxoxoBruce · 01-30-2009, 02:08 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gwennie!

Thanks to everyone here for putting up with my nonsense as this forum was the place I started to come out of the closet.

No problem, man... er, Ma'am. You were always entertaining, what more could we ask? Stick around, or at least keep us posted on your progress. I, for one, would love to here about the experience.

limey · 01-30-2009, 05:36 AM

Wotcher Gwennie - glad to see you back!

lumberjim · 01-30-2009, 10:01 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Gwennie!

Thank you for remembering me after all these years, 3 foots. I missed all of you and decided to see what's up here.

I finally came out of the closet IRL about 18 months ago. I am in early transition M->F. The trigger was not being able to do the mens' AA program. After another relapse, I decided to do AA as a female. It's been great and I finally got 1 year of sobriety.

I've been accepted into the lesbian fellowship in San Jose. I do everyday things with them such as movies, dinner, watching The L Word, moving and attended one wedding.

Now eligible for hormones, I am little afraid of this next step. I will be getting feminine voice/movement coaching soon. I've done laser on the beard and chest hair.

Thanks to everyone here for putting up with my nonsense as this forum was the place I started to come out of the closet.

Rock,
Have you read The World According to Garp? Ellen Jamesian?

Lesbian trapped in a man's body? I have that a little bit myself. I get by in spite of it. Be strong, sister!

Shawnee123 · 01-09-2009, 10:06 AM

I'm me no matter where I am. What you read is what you get...IRL I am more subdued in argument, maybe.

barefoot serpent · 01-09-2009, 10:08 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Brianna

ETA this probably looks like marichiko attention whoring. maybe it is. so what?

boom goes the dynamite

DanaC · 01-09-2009, 10:10 AM

Bri, you are no crazier than the next bird....trouble is the next bird is Shawnee, so that ain't sayin much *grins*

Seriously, though, you aren't any nuttier than most of us phreaks. Nor are you 'A Bitch'. You are quite capable of being a bitch and you are from time to time. Then again, so am I and so are most of us.

Don't beat yourself up, babe, there's enough in the world who'll do that for you. You're just feeling negative, and seeing your own worst side more clearly than you're seeing your best. We see both here, I think, and you'll do for us.

01-09-2009, 09:09 AM	#1
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	Am I a Mental Bitch? I need to know. What do you honestly think. I am feeling like I am a lousy human being just because...well, never mind. Am I mental? Am I the crazy woman? Am I a bitch? Some people are bitches SOME of the time. I hope that is me and I'm not a bitch ALL of the time----but, am I? ETA this probably looks like marichiko attention whoring. maybe it is. so what? Another ETA: I feel like Leona Helmsley or Ann Coulter. THAT is how bad I feel. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

01-09-2009, 09:14 AM	#2
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	No no no Bri. You are you. YOu are sweet, and yet you don't take any crap. You make yourself feel lousy because of that pressure women can still get from society that standing up for yourself, or sometimes just being yourself, warrants the bitch label. A bitch, to me, is someone who doesn't care about others, and likes to hurt others. You are so far from that you can't even see it with binoculars. You are a big hearted person with a huge capability of caring. So sometimes that hurts you...so you try to turn it inward and make yourself feel like you've done something wrong. Granted, I have no idea what you were referring to, but this is my take on it in a general sense. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

01-09-2009, 09:14 AM	#3
Sheldonrs Master Dwellar Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 4,412	Is "bitch" a bad thing? __________________ Laugh and the world laughs with you; cry and the world laughs AT you.

01-09-2009, 09:23 AM	#4
footfootfoot To shreds, you say? Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: in the house and on the street-how many, many feet we meet! Posts: 18,449	Yeah, define "mental." __________________ The internet is a hateful stew of vomit you can never take completely seriously. - Her Fobs

01-09-2009, 09:27 AM	#5
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	mental: footfootfoot __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

01-09-2009, 09:48 AM	#6
dar512 dar512 is now Pete Zicato Join Date: May 2003 Location: Chicago suburb Posts: 4,968	Despite the very real connection, I don't think we really "know" each other online. If you want a valid opinion, you'd need to ask multiple people who know you IRL. FWIW, you seem nice enough to me. What made you start doubting yourself? __________________ "Against stupidity the gods themselves contend in vain." -- Friedrich Schiller

01-09-2009, 09:44 AM	#7
HungLikeJesus Only looks like a disaster tourist Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: above 7,000 feet Posts: 7,208	No. If you were you would not care enough to ask. __________________ Keep Your Bodies Off My Lawn SteveDallas's Random Thread Picker.

01-09-2009, 09:52 AM	#8
footfootfoot To shreds, you say? Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: in the house and on the street-how many, many feet we meet! Posts: 18,449	Have we had a thread where dwellars who know one another IRL compare online personas with cellar personas? I am quite a bit different IRL than in the cellar, but not as different as Gwennie was. __________________ The internet is a hateful stew of vomit you can never take completely seriously. - Her Fobs

01-30-2009, 05:36 AM	#11
limey Encroaching on your decrees Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: An island within the south-west coast of Scotland Posts: 7,016	Wotcher Gwennie - glad to see you back! __________________ Living it up on the edge ... of civilisation, within the southwest coast of

01-09-2009, 10:06 AM	#13
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	I'm me no matter where I am. What you read is what you get...IRL I am more subdued in argument, maybe. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

01-09-2009, 10:10 AM	#15
DanaC We have to go back, Kate! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Yorkshire Posts: 25,964	Bri, you are no crazier than the next bird....trouble is the next bird is Shawnee, so that ain't sayin much grins Seriously, though, you aren't any nuttier than most of us phreaks. Nor are you 'A Bitch'. You are quite capable of being a bitch and you are from time to time. Then again, so am I and so are most of us. Don't beat yourself up, babe, there's enough in the world who'll do that for you. You're just feeling negative, and seeing your own worst side more clearly than you're seeing your best. We see both here, I think, and you'll do for us.

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