2016 Must Die...2017...Um...Jeez

[Pico and ME]

My 2016 has been all about overcoming challenges and still staying upbeat. I struggled to deal with the divorce and not let it tear me down. I struggled to find the perfect house for me. I found it, but then had to put a lot of money into it and in the process the guy who did not finish cleaning up the overgrown landscaping threatened to sue me for the rest of the money (I had given him half down). That was nerve-wracking, but I powered through and now I don't hear from him anymore. Then I found out that I had tumors in my ovaries. I struggled to stay upbeat (and was pretty successful) while I went through the series of tests and then the surgery. Now, I'm struggling to come to terms with a cancer that is not common and will kill me. Its treatable and i will go through chemo, but it is not curable. The only question now is when it will get so bad that nothing can be done and nobody can give me a timetable on that. Maybe 3 months, maybe 6, and maybe even a year or two. So my burden now is working out how to stay positive and upbeat. Because if I'm going to be all morose about it, then I might as well kill myself now, which I don't want to do.

Throughout this year I have been really successful at keeping my chin up even though it probably was the suckyest year ever for me. I always told myself that the strongest steel is forged by the fires of hell. So I hope as 2017 rolls along I will get stronger and not remember the pain of the last year.

[monster]

Originally Posted by Pico and ME

I'm struggling to come to terms with a cancer that is not common and will kill me. Its treatable and i will go through chemo, but it is not curable. The only question now is when it will get so bad that nothing can be done and nobody can give me a timetable on that.

It is our experience that "they" verge on the pessimistic when the cancer or the specific occurrence of the cancer is rare and uncurable. They won't tell you because they have no idea, there isn't enough data, they don't want to give false hope. That doesn't mean there is no hope. So determine that you will create the data and it will be positive data for all who follow. You are in a fantastic position to be a ray of light for all who follow. It might get you in the end, and it might be sooner rather than later, but who knows what else was in store for you anyway? It's my unscientific and baseless opinion that predicted demises can be self fulfilling prophesies. Why do you need a deadline anyway? If you have something you want to do ....DO IT. Do it now. everyone should live by this maxim, cancer or no, IMO. Who knows when the next texting driver or nutter with a gun will hover too close to your orbit anyway? Carpe Diem. You got this.

/preach-scuseme-bitpassionateaboutthis