yesterday...

[Aliantha]

Sundae, I touched something I shouldn't have. I was doing something to the spa heater and I guess I had a brain fart. Anyway, it gave me a bit of a kick. Felt a bit funny for the rest of the day and went to bed early and slept for 14 hours, then woke feeling like I'd been hit by a truck. Feeling better now, but think I'll get an early one again tonight.

Bruce, I don't plan on doing it again, but I suppose I've just been reflecting on it. I mentioned when I posted on facebook, that the first thing I thought of after I realised I was ok, was to think how it was lucky I wasn't dead, cause who the fuck would clean the house if I died?! That's not so great when you realise intrinsically that you feel like that's the main thing the people you love the most need you for. I have been doing a lot of thinking about that today.

So far, no bright lights. Just heaps of more depressing realisations.

Oh well, I guess I'll just keep ticking on...till i stop ticking.