i have nothing to lose

[staceyv]

my goal is to go to a doctor and see if i can fix my cramp issues. then i want a different job. problem is, i only have experience as a waitress, veterinary technician and receptionist. receptionist is the only position i'd be willing to take, and i feel like i'd be trading in this stupid job i hate for a job where i have to work twice as much to make the same amount of money and i don't necessarily like. you know what i'd really love? to be a housewife like in the forties and fifties. just cook, clean, do laundry,( play my guitar, go to the gym), iron, budget household expenses, have sex, maybe take a few classes, some karate classes maybe, have a band on the side, maybe have a kid or two and have lots of time to do mommy stuff.....i just want to domestic things that do not involve working with the general public! and i don't care about having a lot of money, as long as the bills are paid and i have cigarettes...and i am waaaay too afraid to quit those.