Suicide Watch Thread

Honestly, I only think about it when I'm having extreme pain. It messes with my head.
Thinking in any rational way is very hard during those times and all I want is for it to stop and for my family's pain to stop because it harms them as well. I just want to hide from them.
It took my grandmother thirteen years to die of cancer and now I'm putting them through that all over again.
There is a lot of guilt involved with being this sick and having people who care about you.
Today is bad, lot of pain, lot of meds.