Putting Out the Lights

[Kitsune]

Originally Posted by Elspode

I took my Ruger out of its case, loaded it, and looked at it for a long time. Then I thought about everyone I knew, my friends, my son...my future, bleak though it seemed. And I put it away. Nothing so dramatic as putting the barrel in my mouth or up against my temple. Nothing so close as a single twitch on the trigger to dispatch my suffering. But I *saw* it, for the first time, in my mind, as a possibility. And I never wondered again how people could take their own lives.

I don't want to bring up any politics with this question, but did this raise the possibility of getting the gun out of the house? Possibly even temporarily?

Brave thread, by the way.

[Elspode]

Originally Posted by Kitsune

I don't want to bring up any politics with this question, but did this raise the possibility of getting the gun out of the house? Possibly even temporarily?

No. Once I put it away that night, I knew I wouldn't do it. Besides, there's lots of ways to kill yourself. I still had a car and a garage. That's how TD did it.

[xoxoxoBruce]

Been 2 steps from the edge, but not the one step. Honestly, I think it was thoughts of not having a shot at revenge,that kept me from getting closer.

Have been 1 step from murder, however. I'm not detailing that.

[Cloud]

Originally Posted by xoxoxoBruce

Been 2 steps from the edge, but not the one step.

for me, those 2 steps were my children. Even in my darkest moments, I could never do that to them. Lifesavers indeed.