Uh oh, scared him off??

[DucksNuts]

The story so far.....

Met Mr *A* online (ohhhhhh, I hear you say!!).

He's from a totally different part of Australia and when he emailed me, I said "wtf are you emailing a chick from Victoria?".

Turns out he has family locally and may be relocating here next year.

Anyways, he's an Army dude. We've been chatting since mid October, getting along very well (natch) etc etc. He's smart, very level headed and never gets flustered about things.

He's HERE at the moment, well, staying with his family and here every few days.

First meeting, we went shopping together, got along well. He came here Boxing nite, we had drinkies and sat and talked for hours...then...ahem, well....you know.

We have just come back (with kids in tow) from a couple of nites in Melbourne. Now, boxing nite, he was all touchy feely, and it was great. First day out and about in Melbourne - nothing. Told myself it was because of the kids....thats fair isnt it??

That nite, we go out for dinner (alone) and then onto the casino. Best nite I have had in years, all touchy feely again....we had a ball.

Next day...science works and hung around the beach. Back to daytime behavior.

Now, we have still been getting along very well, but the self destructive part of me couldnt leave it at that.....no no nononono!!

I sent him *the sms* today, along the lines of:

"we've spent a bit of time together now and I need to get things right in my head. I can handle whatever this is, holiday fling or fuck buddy etc....so what do you see this as?"

he replied with "what the? how am I supposed to answer that?"

to which I said, "the truth?"

He called just before and said he never thought this as a holiday fling and was just wanting to go along, take one day at a time, have some fun and see what happens...fair. But I feel like it was a partial blow off, or I over stepped some boundary?????? did i???

I have done these slightly warped txts in the past and he has always called me, said the right (and correct things) and we have talked our way through it.

He's calling when his kids go to bed, so we will see I guess.

I'm my own worse enemy it would appear. I'm like Ally McBeal, I cant be happy.