Why am I such farked in the head??

[limey]

Originally Posted by rkzenrage

Look deep... do you feel like you deserve them?
Really DESERVE to be treated well?
I did not for a long time, and I sabotaged every relationship that was going well, until I chose to deserve to be treated well and treat her well. I still do it sometimes, catch myself and stop it, apologize, make-up for it and move-on.
If you have low self esteem, the impulse to sabotage relationships won't end, we don't feel like we deserve them unless they are harming us... then we treat the abusers like princes(cesses).
If you get really lucky, you will get one that recognizes what you are doing and they will laugh at your attempt to push them away and just say "stop it and get over here". Very few us us get that lucky.

Wise words.