Im a frickin lunatic

[Munchkin]

Hi labrat, thanks for the response...

I guess Im just afraid of overstating the situation maybe... And also that if I was to take meds, I wouldnt know if they were working for a long time because I can sometimes go 4 or 5 months without an out of the ordinary episode...

I think a lot of it is that I dont trust myself... I dont know if this is just normal ... or if Im a subconscious attention seeker... ugh...

I probably should just bite the bullet and go... Its not about pride.. I woudnt be embarassed to go or to talk... I just dont know if my situation is 'bad enough' (which you addresses...and yes if I was phsycally ill id send my butt right to the doctor... I dont know why this seems so different... maybe because if my leg hurts, I know that I did something to my leg...but if Im sad, maybe Im just supposed to be sad... maybe I dont like my job and thats why I cried at night.... ugh... I dunno)