Would I have hated you in high school?

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i was two different people in high school. there was this freak farming accident that caused me to lose my memory and use of one arm... oh wait that was a movie.


freshman and soph years i was still the kid who played football, soccer, track, and wrestling. i was in honors classes. i didn't party hard myself but because i was into the underground punk/metal scene i knew those guys too. i got along with everyone, but i still thought it was important to be involved with the popular people. i came from a feeder school of only @80 people in my class to the high school with >650 in my class alone, so it was a little bit of a struggle to get to the A-list. when i finally got there i was dating one of the "popular" girls - cheerleader, etc.

we got into an argument because she wanted to go to a certain party on friday night and i didn't. i just wasn't feeling well. she was all flustered and tried explaining to me that if you don't go to the parties you won't be popular anymore because you won't be a part of the inside jokes, etc. up until then i had no idea that the ultra-popular people were so shallow that they would cast out one of their own for missing a party.

that conversation really changed a lot for me.

i told her to piss off and enjoy her party and her friends, i didn't need them. i quit sports and took on more hours at work so i could have more cash. i didn't go to another party until graduation week.

as a result of telling the popular people to F off - i was catapulted to the tops of their ranks. the more i didn't hang out with them, the more they asked me to. i hung out with my punk skater friends from other cities and dated girls from other schools. i didn't find out until almost graduation time that it was a sign of being "cool" to actually get me to hang out someone outside of school. fucking losers.

i was a kid who didn't care about the games and really really just enjoyed my life and my real friends and as a result i, apparently, gained the popularity they were climbing all over eachother to maintain.