The Last Exit

[Catwoman]

That's not true love that's true fear. I feel for the cats.

[xoxoxoBruce]

One of the factors that distinguishes elderly suicide victims from any other age group is their sheer determination to end their lives. In general, older people have fewer prior suicide attempts and use deadlier means than younger individuals.

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[elf]

Originally Posted by Catwoman

That's not true love that's true fear. I feel for the cats.

I disagree. It's not fear. It's resignation. It's deciding that life's not worth the pain of continuing.

All the 'if only's keep running though my head. I think the biggest one is if only there were pain medication that actually worked well enough and didn't cause so many detrimental side effects. . . well, then getting old wouldn't be quite so terrible.

I hope that such a medication exists by the time I get old (hell, <i>now </i>would be nice, too...), or I might follow that same route. Having suffered through a helluva lot of back pain already puts me at a level of understanding for making a decision like that. (I thank vanity so very much for corsets!)

I feel pretty damned useless. I do keep encouraging my boy-child to follow in his dream of becoming a scientist. Maybe someday he'll make a difference at some of these things that I am useless for.

Ok, yeah, I'm rambling. I'll shut up now.