I'm ashamed of myself

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I'm a horrible person. I've had a stressful week, what with car troubles and things, and I had a crying meltdown last week and a throwing things/anger meltdown yesterday. I snapped viciously at my friends/co-workers yesterday.

I don't even know why I was so upset yesterday. But I know why I'm upset now. I apologized to my friend, and I think apologies are important, but apologies don't erase the behavior. I don't want to be that person--that moody person who thinks she can just say I'm sorry and everything is okay again.

It isn't. I'm an adult, and I should be able to control my emotions, and accept the consequences of my actions. And I do--I am just pretty ashamed of myself today. Of course--that makes me weepy and sad, which is still moody.

Crap.