Nah, I'm still her best friend and we're still on good terms; it was about as 'mutual' as getting dumped can get. I'm the one who encouraged her to come out of the closet, because the closet isnt a nice place to be. I just want her to be happy. She's still really upset about it, possibly more so than I am, and so shes not doing so great (and really, really sick to boot - its between strep, lyme disease, and fucking lupus at this point)... but as soon as she starts feeling a little better about it I may too. But I know I don't really want to move on - not in a stupid pathetic live-in-the-past way, but because I want to be there for her always, because I always want her to be happy, because being her best friend with a crush is better than moving on and losing her.
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not really back, you didn't see me, i was never here shhhhhh
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