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Shawnee123 · 03-28-2007, 01:28 PM

You should write, you are quite talented.

As to the biological clock, I have long told people that my biological clock is digital, so I don't hear it ticking. So many people told me, when I was younger, that I'd regret not having kids. I didn't think the possibility of future regret to be sufficient reason for me to make a step I wasn't sure I wanted. I think sometimes what a neat kid I would have had. I've had many people tell me what a great mom I would be, after watching me with their kids or my nieces and nephews. But I'm not sure I have what it takes to survive the constant worry that doesn't end even once your child has grown. Maybe I never felt in my own heart that I was good enough, that I could give that kind of intense consuming love without driving myself or them crazy, maybe I never believed I was worthy of the unconditional love of a child. Like the unconditional love of my parents and brothers, I might carry a guilt for not seeing what the hell anyone could find to care about in me.

Or, maybe I'm just lazy.

03-28-2007, 01:28 PM	#10
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	You should write, you are quite talented. As to the biological clock, I have long told people that my biological clock is digital, so I don't hear it ticking. So many people told me, when I was younger, that I'd regret not having kids. I didn't think the possibility of future regret to be sufficient reason for me to make a step I wasn't sure I wanted. I think sometimes what a neat kid I would have had. I've had many people tell me what a great mom I would be, after watching me with their kids or my nieces and nephews. But I'm not sure I have what it takes to survive the constant worry that doesn't end even once your child has grown. Maybe I never felt in my own heart that I was good enough, that I could give that kind of intense consuming love without driving myself or them crazy, maybe I never believed I was worthy of the unconditional love of a child. Like the unconditional love of my parents and brothers, I might carry a guilt for not seeing what the hell anyone could find to care about in me. Or, maybe I'm just lazy. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

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