I want to die

[Uisge Beatha]

It's wonderful to hear you've been able to ask for help, SG. As far as 'not getting anything done until Thursday' goes, it was making a start, as you said. You should be proud of that. My own experiences with (mild) depression showed me how apathetic and listless I could be. I sometimes found myself being quite happy I'd managed to do something as simple as cooking dinner. I hope your situation continues to improve.

I suppose rubbish picking may be popular all over. I've most often heard it referred to as "dumpster diving." (I believe "gleaning" is a much nicer term.) My boss and one of my fellow employees often bring furniture, tools, and appliances into work -- items they found being tossed by people along their route to work. They repair/ spruce up these finds and either take them home or sell them on e-Bay.