this is the scut work of preparing. you're doing it. it's happening right now. fuck. left foot. right foot. left foot. right foot. left foot. right foot.
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I am in a town hall meeting the pres gives. Will send the pm when i get back. I will respond to them, in due time...not react as they want.
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Update:
I sent the letter and got a rather canned response from HR, but some conversation took place because I was presented a reasonable compromise on my paid time off. If I leave here at 5 still employed I will consider it a small victory for me, and for what I've been willing to do to get better, and to make things HERE better. ANd it ain't been easy. I'm such an emotional and reactive person, but I've amazed myself the past few days with how well I've been able to employ the things I worked on in the bin (and I worked very hard) and I hope things only go up from here. If not, I'm OK too because I see what I am capable of. I don't feel so damn useless and unloveable and icky. And, as always, they can kill you but they can't eat you. Once again, thanks to everyone who has supported me through this (sometimes you realize who really cares even when you think they don't and that some really don't even when you think they did and it's all OK either way, you know?) It was (and is) a doozy of a trip for me and I wouldn't have fared so well without caring people in my life. |
Hooray for the reasonable compromise! Good job standing up for yourself.
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Looks like you're hanging on OK on a rather bumpy ride, Infi! And it sounds like you've got a better handle on you and your capabilities, too. Good luck!
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Belting out the park again, Infi. Well done you :)
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Hope it continues to go well for you, infi. Let's give that gal 100 bonus points for her spunk!
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Shaw,
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Thanks guys. :)
Had my first appt with my therapist (not my psychiatrist) and I like her. She focuses on outcomes and goals rather than laying (lying? I can never get that one right) on the couch having your head patted and your hand held. I think this is really going to be helpful. It was a rough weekend (sick most of it, my tonsils had turned to pieces of quartz it seemed) but I feel really good now. Self-talking is helping. Remembering to breathe, stopping negative thoughts by talking through them (in my head...hahhahaa) and not assuming everyone is thinking I'm a big giant loser...all good things. I mean, they may or may not think I'm a big giant loser but I have no control over that, right? ;) Therapist also wants to work with me on some career assessments! Imma be like the Grandma Moses of whatever I end up doing. You've all been so kind. :) |
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Glad to hear a positive update, infi! I hope therapy goes well for you. :)
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Thanks! I use a lot of those tricks for other words that are easily mixed up but I hadn't heard that one.
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You need to try this one as well. To, you know, help you through difficulties.
Mrs D, Mrs I, Mrs F, F, I Mrs C, Mrs U, Mrs L, T, Y No, I'm in no way you're suggesting you need spelling help. Just my phonics class did mnemonics last week and I can't get it out of my head. Good luck will come to all whose kindness leaves you without debt. Karma owes you one. |
I before E except after C, or when sounding like A as in Neighbor and Weigh. Or when sounding like I as in Height, apparently, and also the exceptions such as Science and so forth.
Mr. Pun Mr. Chin Mr. Nell, Mr. O Mr. Punchinello! Sod the rules, you wanking toss-pots (watching too much Green Wing) Quote:
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