Not much time left...and I miss my parents...
Congrats to the community. You WIN. I wanted things to be so much different for my life. Today was easter adn i was too ashamed toi call home. ashamed of who i am. Ashamed I could not get the job done. ...so be it...i guess.
I know how I am viewed on here. i see what is written. i AM a loser. and am low on food and money. i see what little I have. not much to see. i came here because of someone telling me to. i know i am looked at as a 'troller' person. my circumstances are real...
things got out of hand in my life. i wish i could blame the econmy. but i will take the blame. please do not ever say i was not honest about my being. do you know what it is like deciding to spend money on food or medicine .... when yuo can not buy both???
so please do not evr call me a fraud. most of you will never knwo...and i hope you do not ever have to know what it is like - even those on here who tried to destry my soul.
yes, i lost the gotham's writer contest. she was better. and yes, i did get banned from cafepharma. i was her on that site. howmuch more can one bare their soul to an anonymous website????
no of you care. so if you do not like what I post then let me be...just let me go. a life of pain. a life of mutilation and regret.
Pam.
Congrats to the community. You WIN. I wanted things to be so much different for my life. Today was easter adn i was too ashamed toi call home. ashamed of who i am. Ashamed I could not get the job done. ...so be it...i guess.
I know how I am viewed on here. i see what is written. i AM a loser. and am low on food and money. i see what little I have. not much to see. i came here because of someone telling me to. i know i am looked at as a 'troller' person. my circumstances are real...
things got out of hand in my life. i wish i could blame the econmy. but i will take the blame. please do not ever say i was not honest about my being. do you know what it is like deciding to spend money on food or medicine .... when yuo can not buy both???
so please do not evr call me a fraud. most of you will never knwo...and i hope you do not ever have to know what it is like - even those on here who tried to destry my soul.
yes, i lost the gotham's writer contest. she was better. and yes, i did get banned from cafepharma. i was her on that site. howmuch more can one bare their soul to an anonymous website????
no of you care. so if you do not like what I post then let me be...just let me go. a life of pain. a life of mutilation and regret.
Pam.
p.s. enjoy your life fuckers!!! i will never return
EVER.
Last post,
Pam!!!
Sweeps week over so soon?
I, like many here, thought it was Emma. Emma has gotten around her IP ban in the past by posting from locations other than home during school breaks, and last week was a school break. I assumed Emma was staying with someone who lives in Queens. But I decided it wasn't Emma, because there was no politics. Emma could never resist baiting liberals, and I've seen none of that with Pam. I expect to see Pam posting again tonight.
Wolf taught us about Borderline Personality Disorder a while back. Bold mine:
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/borderline-personality-disorder-fact-sheet/index.shtml
Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a serious mental illness characterized by pervasive instability in moods, interpersonal relationships, self-image, and behavior. This instability often disrupts family and work life, long-term planning, and the individual's sense of self-identity. Originally thought to be at the "borderline" of psychosis, people with BPD suffer from a disorder of emotion regulation. While less well known than schizophrenia or bipolar disorder (manic-depressive illness), BPD is more common, affecting 2 percent of adults, mostly young women. There is a high rate of self-injury without suicide intent, as well as a significant rate of suicide attempts and completed suicide in severe cases.
Wait..
..who are you? Jk. Don't mind me!
Wolf taught us about Borderline Personality Disorder a while back.
I was working on that assumption from her first post, incidentally.
Hi. Yet again, you have forced my hand. I am not 'Emma.' But I have seen all comparisions. I do not talk politics or religeon...as Mr. Glatt stated. It is not me. What I meant by 'not a lot of time?' If i do not find a job this week, I will be foreced to move back home...
That has nothing to do with school break. I graduated college already. I am unemployed and on 'permanent break.'...or so it appears. I have been honest about my sitauation...have I not???
I do get upset by the comments, and at times have wine and go into a fit of rage... I do not know what else to say at this point...
I know I have a personality disorder! Is that what you want to hear?? Well there, i have just stated that for the record. I do not mean any disrespec tto anyone, nor tihs site. I thank Mr. undertoad for allowing me here. and i thank Glatt for believing the truth about me.
Not, I shall ask some of you to prove to me that this 'Emma' person existed. It is driving me nuts... yet nobody will tell me??
upset, jaded, disallusioned, sad, and very confused right now,
Pam.
glad you're back,
jim
not just pamming, either
Step one: Don't have wine.
Or vodka.
Or weed.
Or other clearly ineffective means of coping.
Stay on your medications, continue in therapy.
Decide what you want. Write it down.
Rewrite it into achievable goals and steps to achieve those goals.
Hang a printed copy somewhere that you will see it multiple times per day.
Implement the steps that you have defined.
Pam, I asked you a question that I was serious about, but you never answered it. So...one more try.
You say your 'rents live in a nearby state. I was curious if you and they moved over here at the same time, or were you born here? Or maybe you were adopted? I'm just trying to figure out the logistics.
You've been most entertaining. I don't know your story but would like to know more.
I used to miss my parents too. Then a friend told me I wasn't leading them enough...
and you have to allow for windage
Wait a minute. She said her mother died giving birth to her and her father died when she was 16.
Pam, I asked you a question that I was serious about, but you never answered it. So...one more try.
You say your 'rents live in a nearby state. I was curious if you and they moved over here at the same time, or were you born here? Or maybe you were adopted? I'm just trying to figure out the logistics.
You've been most entertaining. I don't know your story but would like to know more.
My parents live in NJ. i have a step mom. My real mother died while giving birth to me...which I have talk about on here. I moved here at 11 or 12. I spend my day on the computer looking for jobs. and I also come on here in between the search which is exhausing...
I move back and forthe between the screens of here, and employment sites. I was told about this site from someone who stumbled upon it. this person knows my true identity from the other site i have spoken about. I love this site. it is truly the best...
since i have answered your questions, i want to know about this other 'emma' person. if it is not allowed to be discussion, than that is fine. but evidently she did something very terrible.
I have come in peace. while i am unstable and i understand that, i am harmless and kind.
Thank you,
Pam.
That's not what she said elsewhere. She said they lived in another state. It started my whole "what's your story" questions in gawd knows which of the hundreds of threads she started, which were never answered.
Don't let the facts get in the way of a good story.
That's not what she said elsewhere. She said they lived in another state. It started my whole "what's your story" questions in gawd knows which of the hundreds of threads she started, which were never answered.
yes, they live in a different state. i am in NY, they are in NJ.
what do you lack to understand??
yes, they live in a different state. i am in NY, they are in NJ.
what do you lack to understand??
Mr. Infinite lacks credulity to the understandingness.
and you have to allow for windage
Practice makes perfect! PULL!
Pam, have you been officially diagnosed?
Do you attend therapy?
Wait a minute. She said her mother died giving birth to her and her father died when she was 16.
To lose one parent may be regarded as a misfortune, but to lose both parents looks like carelessness.
(Lady Bracknell)
People, you have to understand that none of the life examples Pam gives are intended as factual statements.
Pam, have you been officially diagnosed?
Do you attend therapy?
Yes. i have been diagnosed with a personality disorder, anxiety neurosis, depression, and bi-polar. I do attend therapy, and take medications. my condition hopefully explains my passive/aggressive behaviour (or so they tell me.)
at times, i just go nuts. it's not something i want to do; and it is very difficult for me to controll. but i will try harder. if i see someone who is homeless or hungry i will offer to buy them a snack or whatever i can afford. i have a very kind heart. but then there are times when i 'snap' for no reasons. like when i saw the pretty girl on the train holding flowers. and i wanted to smash them because i never get flowers. but that would not be fair to her.
at the same time the thought was in my mind until she got off the train. and i keep staring at her perfect pretty face and body. I was jealous and angry.
Wishig you the best Mr underoad,
Pam.
Not, I shall ask some of you to prove to me that this 'Emma' person existed. It is driving me nuts... yet nobody will tell me??
A former member here was named "Starring Emma." She became intolerably annoying, and to get rid of her, she was "sent to Coventry." This means that she could make posts, but nobody else could see her posts. She could see them, and Undertoad and the moderators could see them if they wanted to, but for everyone else, her posts are gone. So I can't show you any of her posts, because she's been made invisible. You will just have to trust that she was here, and be happy that you don't have to read her posts.
A former member here was named "Starring Emma." She became intolerably annoying, and to get rid of her, she was "sent to Coventry." This means that she could make posts, but nobody else could see her posts. She could see them, and Undertoad and the moderators could see them if they wanted to, but for everyone else, her posts are gone. So I can't show you any of her posts, because she's been made invisible. You will just have to trust that she was here, and be happy that you don't have to read her posts.
thank you for reply. Anyone with the name 'starring emma' wanted to be a 'star.' so that should have gave her away. When i was on the other site, there was a person imitating me. I do not know what the motivation was. And i spent a lot of time battling that. I tried to show people how the structural sentences were different. I quoted the other poster's post, and then posted below how i would have written it. it was not fair to me. the 'imposter' used much bigger words than me, and longer senetences. and was much better at grammer. finally the webmaster came on. she had checked each IP address. and dismissed the rumor. I won validation!!!
thanks again,
Pam.
That's excellent, going for therapy! Good job by you.
When you're in therapy, do they give you suggestions on how to manage it when you "snap"?
That's excellent, going for therapy! Good job by you.
When you're in therapy, do they give you suggestions on how to manage it when you "snap"?
Well, i have 'breathing techniqes' theye have taught me. also 'immiging' techniqes as well. I try to focus on my 'happy place' in my brain. so a lot of it is mental exercize.
i also need to be more carful to take medication at propers time. that is a very big factor. i also need to not drink wine. that is a key trigger to my mood.
thank you for a wonderful sight,
Love Pam.
Pam, I am writing you a reply because I think what I have to say is important. But before you read, I want you know one thing. A lot of what I have to say will sound very mean, but I am only being 100% honest.
The reason why some of us might think you are troll is because your responses are erratic, you are offended very easily and blow things out of proportion, and you post a lot of threads about yourself and then get angry for us talking about you. If you are a really the way you say, than I am sorry for baiting you, but your actions are very suspect so it is hard to take you seriously.
My advice, if you want it, is to stop posting/reading The Cellar. Not because I do not want your input, but because I think it is bad for you. You do not need to do so for forever, but take a break. 6months or a year. You are not alone in this, many dwellers here have had to take a break when they were having mental issues. You have admitted to having mental issues, and you are not coping well at this time. Thats normal, you are under a lot of stress. That being said, it is hard enough to judge a person's true intent in real life, it is 50times harder to judge their intent on the internet when you do not have body, face or voice cues to help you discern their meaning. Therefor, I think you should take a break from online interacting. I think you are having a hard time understanding people's intent, and online you need to have the ability to stay calm and rational. At this time, you are struggling with that and you need to time to gain mental stability. Again, many of the posters here have had the same exact issue and had to take a break. You are not the only one.
Next, if your parents are good people, and able to help you out, then forget the job in NY and move back in with them. I, myself, have had to move back to my parents more than once due to medical issues. There is no shame in that. If living with them will help you have less stress, then do it. You need to focus on your mental health and do whatever it takes. Mental diseases are extremely difficult to control, it takes time, and most people do not understand them very well. Give the medicine time to work, almost all meds I've used for depression took months to a year to be truly effective, even meds for other diseases like Rheumatoid Arthritis can take a long time to work well. Do not give up on the meds, take them!
Last, STOP DRINKING! The type of meds you are probably on do not work well with alcohol. If you truly want to get better, do not drink alcohol at all.
Again, I know this will probably upset you, but believe it or not, I mean it to help you. Concentrate on getting better, take a break from online interaction. I wish you the best.
Please take time to really think about my message. Even take it in to your therapist if you have to and see what their opinion is if need be.
Pam, I am writing you a reply because I think what I have to say is important. But before you read, I want you know one thing. A lot of what I have to say will sound very mean, but I am only being 100% honest.
The reason why some of us might think you are troll is because your responses are erratic, you are offended very easily and blow things out of proportion, and you post a lot of threads about yourself and then get angry for us talking about you. If you are a really the way you say, than I am sorry for baiting you, but your actions are very suspect so it is hard to take you seriously.
My advice, if you want it, is to stop posting/reading The Cellar. Not because I do not want your input, but because I think it is bad for you. You do not need to do so for forever, but take a break. 6months or a year. You are not alone in this, many dwellers here have had to take a break when they were having mental issues. You have admitted to having mental issues, and you are not coping well at this time. Thats normal, you are under a lot of stress. That being said, it is hard enough to judge a person's true intent in real life, it is 50times harder to judge their intent on the internet when you do not have body, face or voice cues to help you discern their meaning. Therefor, I think you should take a break from online interacting. I think you are having a hard time understanding people's intent, and online you need to have the ability to stay calm and rational. At this time, you are struggling with that and you need to time to gain mental stability. Again, many of the posters here have had the same exact issue and had to take a break. You are not the only one.
Next, if your parents are good people, and able to help you out, then forget the job in NY and move back in with them. I, myself, have had to move back to my parents more than once due to medical issues. There is no shame in that. If living with them will help you have less stress, then do it. You need to focus on your mental health and do whatever it takes. Mental diseases are extremely difficult to control, it takes time, and most people do not understand them very well. Give the medicine time to work, almost all meds I've used for depression took months to a year to be truly effective, even meds for other diseases like Rheumatoid Arthritis can take a long time to work well. Do not give up on the meds, take them!
Last, STOP DRINKING! The type of meds you are probably on do not work well with alcohol. If you truly want to get better, do not drink alcohol at all.
Again, I know this will probably upset you, but believe it or not, I mean it to help you. Concentrate on getting better, take a break from online interaction. I wish you the best.
Please take time to really think about my message. Even take it in to your therapist if you have to and see what their opinion is if need be.
Dear Morethanpretty: No, I am not mad. (spell checker is working on my computer) so this message will be perfect. I can sense your honesty. Quiting is not best for me - as it will be defeated. I really do not have any place to release my feelings. I have few friends. I wish I could roam around the city more, but I have to apply for jobs online. Everything is online...
Perhaps, you will admit. People have been less than kind to me on here ... with a few exceptions. I just , I do not know. I see what people are saying. I was on other chatting boards, and then the same thing happened. And I was made out to be the bad person...
Getting 'banned' does hurt. There was never a reason given. But I am happy here. No other chat board wants me. my thoughts are a bit scattered. I apologize. I need a job.
It is amazing how people can be so cruel. I once saw a girl fall of the train platform. and a total stranger risked his life to save her from the train. i thought, perhaps, strangers are sometimes more willing to help...than friends. so that is why i am here...
I do feel bad for saying 'goodbye.' I just want to feel needed as everyone else. I know I have problems. But if people would simply look beyond what I post, they would see I am kind...
Much love (and hope the spell checking on my machine worked.)
Pam.
The thing is Pam, it is very difficult to 'look behind the posts' when posts are all we have to go on *smiles*
If you don't want to take a break from online interaction then you need to try and dial that interaction back a little. Online communities are just collections of people, they cannot be relied upon to react and respond in the way you want them to. Coming on 'too strong' and too fast can put people on their guard.
If you want to be a real part of this community we need to know more about you than your problems. We need to 'see' you as a person. Starting a bunch of threads that throw the spotlight onto you doesn't help us see you it just turns you into a performance. General interaction accross the board with involvement in different threads would probably allow people to get to know you a little better. It would also help you get to know us a little better.
You're right that some of us have been a little unkind, myself included. But the truth is that was only ever about you for the first day, after that the joke itself became a 'meme'. We are a community, therefore we are subject to trends and fashions, in-jokes and running jokes, factions and fomentation.
This means that if a joke hits, it will likely get picked up on by others and before you know it everyone is making the same joke all over the Cellar. This happens all the time. It's not usually at the expense of a member though.
As to why we would be suspicious of you: there are some people who enjoy causing trouble by presenting a fake persona and persuading others to buy into that persona. Starring Emma was a particularly extreme example of that and she has returned on more than one occasion with a different name and a new identity each time. One of the characteristic features of her approach was to blitz the Cellar with loads of new threads. Another was extensive use of private messages.
This is probably the main reason many of us thought you might be a 'troll', because some aspects of your entrance to the community felt very similar.
Since you are apparently sticking around, maybe let us see a little of you engaging with us on our terms. That is to say, involving yourself in other threads and maybe letting us get a glimpse of your likes and dislikes, your favourite movies, what you might be eating for dinner, or whether you like animals. But not by starting a new thread for these things. The Cellar is full of long running threads, some of whihc have been active for years, in which we get to know odd stuff about each other. It's the inconsequential details and thoughts on politics or the best place to go camping, or how that latest interview went that allow us all to get to know each other.
But like any friendship, these things take time to build. You cannot just magic up instant friendship and comfort with people who are essentially strangers. Nor can you blitz them with every detail and expect that this will suffice. These things take time to build and that's ok. There's fun in the building.
*smiles*
Take a chill pill m'dear. And don't take our teasing to heart. Chances are it's not based on anything you've actually done wrong, but rather that something you've done or said has sparked amusement and set off a 'meme' without you realising.
I appreciate the intentions that you and mortie have, Dana, but why does she have to change to fit in? I think she fits in as is. She's not ruining anyone's day as far as I can tell, and the lulz seems to be never-ending.
I think she's done a fine job of stirring up things here. And they clearly needed stirring.
I say, keep being a basket case, Pam, if that's who you truly are. Don't change a thing.
The thing is Pam, it is very difficult to 'look behind the posts' when posts are all we have to go on *smiles*
If you don't want to take a break from online interaction then you need to try and dial that interaction back a little. Online communities are just collections of people, they cannot be relied upon to react and respond in the way you want them to. Coming on 'too strong' and too fast can put people on their guard.
If you want to be a real part of this community we need to know more about you than your problems. We need to 'see' you as a person. Starting a bunch of threads that throw the spotlight onto you doesn't help us see you it just turns you into a performance. General interaction accross the board with involvement in different threads would probably allow people to get to know you a little better. It would also help you get to know us a little better.
You're right that some of us have been a little unkind, myself included. But the truth is that was only ever about you for the first day, after that the joke itself became a 'meme'. We are a community, therefore we are subject to trends and fashions, in-jokes and running jokes, factions and fomentation.
This means that if a joke hits, it will likely get picked up on by others and before you know it everyone is making the same joke all over the Cellar. This happens all the time. It's not usually at the expense of a member though.
As to why we would be suspicious of you: there are some people who enjoy causing trouble by presenting a fake persona and persuading others to buy into that persona. Starring Emma was a particularly extreme example of that and she has returned on more than one occasion with a different name and a new identity each time. One of the characteristic features of her approach was to blitz the Cellar with loads of new threads. Another was extensive use of private messages.
This is probably the main reason many of us thought you might be a 'troll', because some aspects of your entrance to the community felt very similar.
Since you are apparently sticking around, maybe let us see a little of you engaging with us on our terms. That is to say, involving yourself in other threads and maybe letting us get a glimpse of your likes and dislikes, your favourite movies, what you might be eating for dinner, or whether you like animals. But not by starting a new thread for these things. The Cellar is full of long running threads, some of whihc have been active for years, in which we get to know odd stuff about each other. It's the inconsequential details and thoughts on politics or the best place to go camping, or how that latest interview went that allow us all to get to know each other.
But like any friendship, these things take time to build. You cannot just magic up instant friendship and comfort with people who are essentially strangers. Nor can you blitz them with every detail and expect that this will suffice. These things take time to build and that's ok. There's fun in the building.
*smiles*
Take a chill pill m'dear. And don't take our teasing to heart. Chances are it's not based on anything you've actually done wrong, but rather that something you've done or said has sparked amusement and set off a 'meme' without you realising.
thank you. spell check not is not wrking. sorry.
Ok, where to begina?? I do not know what 'meme' means. At times, I have seen others post about it. I did not mean to start more 'threads.' the other threads of mine got too long to read, so I wanted to start fressh. that is all. I did not mean to come on too fast as you say. I have posted on other threads, but there is nobody response. none at all...so how does that leave me???
I have ask about this 'emma' person' you speak of. rest assured i am not her. Mr. undertaod has my IP address. It will either present itself as Woodhaven or Jamaica Queens. i live in a rented room on
94th street. anyone is more than free to ask him.
on other threads there is 0 response. and now people have forced me into some typo of competition with 'emma.' i saw that post. why is the need for that??? i do not wish to 'win' anything.
I hope for peace, and a good happy family hear. that is all...
thank you...time for wine...
Pam.
I appreciate the intentions that you and mortie have, Dana, but why does she have to change to fit in? I think she fits in as is. She's not ruining anyone's day as far as I can tell, and the lulz seems to be never-ending.
I think she's done a fine job of stirring up things here. And they clearly needed stirring.
I say, keep being a basket case, Pam, if that's who you truly are. Don't change a thing.
I'd be more than happy with that if I didn't think she was being upset. The lulz stop being so hearty if we're dealing with real mental illness.
The lass keeps asking why people are being 'mean' to her.
I appreciate the intentions that you and mortie have, Dana, but why does she have to change to fit in? I think she fits in as is. She's not ruining anyone's day as far as I can tell, and the lulz seems to be never-ending.
I think she's done a fine job of stirring up things here. And they clearly needed stirring.
I say, keep being a basket case, Pam, if that's who you truly are. Don't change a thing.
I agree now with you. Why must i change?? i could not evenn if i wanted to ... i do not wish to 'strir up' issues here. i respect this site and mr. undertoad. i would never do such. i was on another site, which was not as good as here. this site is the BEST. I am me. a complex pile of cells...like us all. thank you for ur support...Pam.
I'd be more than happy with that if I didn't think she was being upset. The lulz stop being so hearty if we're dealing with real mental illness.
The lass keeps asking why people are being 'mean' to her.
because she knows that will elicit a response from you. She is a completely full of shit troll who has your number.
I'd be more than happy with that if I didn't think she was being upset. The lulz stop being so hearty if we're dealing with real mental illness.
The lass keeps asking why people are being 'mean' to her.
I am mentally ill. i admitted that. everyone is to some extent...and if you d not believe me... then you are sicker than me. no offense. as i do like u. i have stated that. one of my psychiatrist (I have a team of 3) is cheating of his wife. he is sicker for doing that and being medical professional.
I enjoy your posts,
Pam.
because she knows that will elicit a response from you. She is a completely full of shit troll who has your number.
I was absolutely of that opinion until yesterday. I have now reverted to my earlier position (and my default position) of reserving judgement and working on an assumption that she is genuine. Just safer that way.
I was absolutely of that opinion until yesterday. I have now reverted to my earlier position (and my default position) of reserving judgement and working on an assumption that she is genuine. Just safer that way.
THANK YOU DANAC!!! i do not understandd what is so hard to believe. i will be validated on here. i want to share somtihng with you. I will go first. I chose my user name for 2 reasons. My real name is Pam. One of my psychiatrist said I am always 'pensive.' I had to look that word up. and it describes me perfect!! so i choose that name. i never saw that word before i was told of it...!!!
would you like to share anything back with me??
Love,
Pam.
because she knows that will elicit a response from you. She is a completely full of shit troll who has your number.
I like being rick rolled, too.
I like being rick rolled, too.
Gleek plick
I was absolutely of that opinion until yesterday. I have now reverted to my earlier position (and my default position) of reserving judgement and working on an assumption that she is genuine. Just safer that way.
what happened yesterday? Did she prove she was deaf and her boyfriend pushed her around? I'm asking since I've put her on ignore since day one.
what happened yesterday? Did she prove she was deaf and her boyfriend pushed her around?
DO YOU REALLY WANT TO know what I am like??? (spell check is back on...my helper is here.) Watch this video at 2:54- 2:57 seconds. that is how i feel...for the most part...i am like the girl in the video emotionally. but no i do not look like her. but her facial expression is the same for those 4 minutes of video.
http://youtu.be/5hiv5bKdKX8
Now leave me alone,
Pam.
[YOUTUBE]5hiv5bKdKX8&start=174[/YOUTUBE]
[YOUTUBE]jK_pLsPFxv8[/YOUTUBE]
lol
So you laugh at my video??? I no longer have a crush on you. I am moving on to Morethanpretty...
take care,
Pam.
adn p.s. don't anyone ever call me 'pamela' or 'pammy.'
Did you go to regular school, Pam?
Actually I was laughing at Jim.
Actually I was laughing at Jim.
Ok, on my profile, i have posted my pic. it is black and white, and a bit touche up to conceal who true identity. not know much about photos and paitings, but it is a cross between the two. now you can see me...if youwish... i always prefer black & white photos...
Pam.
what a load of bollocks.
you do not know much about photos, or how to make them seem like they were taken long ago. you sir, are a moron...
Dick,
Pam.
Pam,
I never said "quit" and that is not what I mean or want you to do. I very seriously want you to take a break. Only for a bit. A lot of us here have our own mental issues, but to varying degrees. Yours seems more severe at this time. I am not asking you to change who you are essentially, but none of us are perfect the way we are. I want you to get healthier. Online interactions are difficult, they can cause mental stress. An issue you are struggling with. This is not a judgement against your character, this is just an observation you yourself told us about. Move back to your parents, keep up with therapy and medicine, DO NOT DRINK, take a break from online socializing and build up to it slowly when you're more prepared for it mentally. You are welcome in this forum, but at this time, we are not healthy for you. Your reaction to Dana's "lol" comment just recently should show you that we are not.
you do not know much about photos, or how to make them seem like they were taken long ago. you sir, are a moron...
Dick,
Pam.
it's spelled moran.
yours dickishly
shirley
Fight - Fight - Fight!! Pammy vs Monnie.
[size=5]DON'T CALL HER PAMMY[/size]
she doesn't like it.
:yeldead:
Pam,
I never said "quit" and that is not what I mean or want you to do. I very seriously want you to take a break. Only for a bit. A lot of us here have our own mental issues, but to varying degrees. Yours seems more severe at this time. I am not asking you to change who you are essentially, but none of us are perfect the way we are. I want you to get healthier. Online interactions are difficult, they can cause mental stress. An issue you are struggling with. This is not a judgement against your character, this is just an observation you yourself told us about. Move back to your parents, keep up with therapy and medicine, DO NOT DRINK, take a break from online socializing and build up to it slowly when you're more prepared for it mentally. You are welcome in this forum, but at this time, we are not healthy for you. Your reaction to Dana's "lol" comment just recently should show you that we are not.
I will take a break starting tomorrow. but once i start on here, i can not stop till sleepy time. so i will do best not to post tomorrow. would that be Ok?? you have been sweet. i want to ask you something, but do not want u to be offeneded. and perhaps, it is not my business...and i do not wish to be 'banned'... oh god...how do i ask?
Pam.
She wants to have your babies, mort.
Fight - Fight - Fight!! Pammy vs Monnie.
no fighting. 'monster' is from michigan. i feel sorry for him. so sad...is it not???
Pam.
It is so sad. We still have six feet of snow and I cannot get to the front door to let my helpers in, so we have not eaten for months. Yesterday, we had to slaughter the last cat. But now I have warm mittens.
[size=5]DON'T CALL HER PAMMY[/size]
she doesn't like it.
No I do not like being called 'pammy.' i have said that!!! you want me to explode, but i will not fall for that trick!!!
pam.
what, no mood indicator?
perplexed,
jimmy
:yeldead:
I will take a break starting tomorrow. but once i start on here, i can not stop till sleepy time. so i will do best not to post tomorrow. would that be Ok?? you have been sweet. i want to ask you something, but do not want u to be offeneded. and perhaps, it is not my business...and i do not wish to be 'banned'... oh god...how do i ask?
Pam.
You have been told the rules for banning, I tried to find them but am feeling lazy. Its not easy to get banned, though you can request it.
One day is a start, but you need longer than that to become mentally healthy. I think you need a break of probably a few months at least, while you work on getting help and healthy.
As to your question, I am a top but I am not into bestiality.
You have been told the rules for banning, I tried to find them but am feeling lazy. Its not easy to get banned, though you can request it.
One day is a start, but you need longer than that to become mentally healthy. I think you need a break of probably a few months at least, while you work on getting help and healthy.
As to your question, I am a top but I am not into bestiality.
No, i would never request to be 'banned.' i like it here. my question was if you were a hermaphrodite. because you have that 'tagline.' i do not judge...and am accepting to everyone nice. i was just curious. that is all... you are very sweet...
Love,
Pam.
If that was you why did you remove the photo?
If that was you why did you remove the photo?
the photo is still there. i can see it. perhaps a problem with upload. but I can see it is there. it is me in a gothic pose... you can not see it??? i will have to ask mr. undertaod.
very best,
Pam.
It's pretty cool that you have your own T-Shirt.
totally fucking impressed,
Jim
Well of course she does Jim! Haven't you ever heard, been there, done that, got the T shirt? :eyebrow:
OH!
I should show you MY picture!
check me out:
(sorry, it's bad quality and stuff)
Jim you look like a very nice man. With a kind face.
Jim it is a shame you are a victim of domestic abuse and have two black eyes.
No, i would never request to be 'banned.' i like it here. my question was if you were a hermaphrodite. because you have that 'tagline.' i do not judge...and am accepting to everyone nice. i was just curious. that is all... you are very sweet...
Love,
Pam.
I just have that quote because I love Steven Colbert and I think its amusing. I am a supporter of equal rights for all of the lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender community although I am not really a part of that community. I am also against animal abuse, but I am not a dog.
Hermaphrodites have fully functioning sex organs of both genders. In humans, you are considered a "true hermaphrodite" if you have both male gonadal tissue (testes) and female gonadal tissue (ovarian tissue), this is very very rare. The term used most for humans can be "inter-sexed" (this is the medical term I was taught) which mostly means they have functioning sex organs of one gender and secondary characteristics of the other gender. "Hermaphrodite" has kinda become a derogatory and offensive term to use for a person. Some societies consider inter-sexed a separate gender from male and female and give them a lot of respect.
Some dwellers in the past have been requested to be banned for their own good because they got too wrapped up emotionally in The Cellar and could not stop themselves from posting. In those cases, once the dweller requests a mod to lift their ban, the mod will do so. Volunteer banning is a semi-normal practice for us.
Pam,
I'm sure you're beautiful in your own right. There's no competition here for the prettiest dwellar. Online, we are all 330 lb fat guys named Mike. Or we are all Angelina Jolie.
It really doesn't matter. just be yourself in your words.
Jim it is a shame you are a victim of domestic abuse and have two black eyes.
I am no longer a victum. He must stay away from my by police order. I am with siobhan now...
Pam.
I am no longer a victum. He must stay away from my by police order. I am with siobhan now...
Pam.
and when she returns later from work. i will eat her pussy!@ and she will be mine. we will 69 each other!! i am looking forward to it!!!
Anticipating a good night,
Pam!!!
Jim it is a shame you are a victim of domestic abuse and have two black eyes.
I am no longer a victum. He must stay away from my by police order. I am with siobhan now...
Pam.
So you don't want it to be all about you and yet you take on board and answer posts CLEARLY addressed to other people?
I just have that quote because I love Steven Colbert and I think its amusing. I am a supporter of equal rights for all of the lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender community although I am not really a part of that community. I am also against animal abuse, but I am not a dog.
Hermaphrodites have fully functioning sex organs of both genders. In humans, you are considered a "true hermaphrodite" if you have both male gonadal tissue (testes) and female gonadal tissue (ovarian tissue), this is very very rare. The term used most for humans can be "inter-sexed" (this is the medical term I was taught) which mostly means they have functioning sex organs of one gender and secondary characteristics of the other gender. "Hermaphrodite" has kinda become a derogatory and offensive term to use for a person. Some societies consider inter-sexed a separate gender from male and female and give them a lot of respect.
Some dwellers in the past have been requested to be banned for their own good because they got too wrapped up emotionally in The Cellar and could not stop themselves from posting. In those cases, once the dweller requests a mod to lift their ban, the mod will do so. Volunteer banning is a semi-normal practice for us.
perhaps, i understand. but you did not answer the question. if it is too personal i nuderstand. no worries. i wont ask again. your face looks female. hey, it does not matter. i still lke you...and i hope you are well!
Your friend,
Pam.
Pam,
I'm sure you're beautiful in your own right. There's no competition here for the prettiest dwellar. Online, we are all 330 lb fat guys named Mike. Or we are all Angelina Jolie.
It really doesn't matter. just be yourself in your words.
That's pretty profound. But I think you should have led in with a cock joke.
So you don't want it to be all about you and yet you take on board and answer posts CLEARLY addressed to other people?
I did not see it was address to him. my apologies. you are right, i am wrong in this matter. sorry.
Pam.
perhaps, i understand. but you did not answer the question. if it is too personal i nuderstand. no worries. i wont ask again. your face looks female. hey, it does not matter. i still lke you...and i hope you are well!
Your friend,
Pam.
She did answer your question.
She did answer your question.
I guess she did, but still no understand on my part. it is ok. she is nice. i am doing better tongith, am i not?? no meltdown for me tonight! i am making peace here! if there is ever a 'cellar reuinion' i wold love to go and meet all of you!!!
Love,
Pam!!!
you claim to make peace and yet still address me as a man..... that's fighting talk where I come from
...lucky for you My mama says I have to go to bed right now. Otherwise you'd really be sorry.
It is so sad. We still have six feet of snow and I cannot get to the front door to let my helpers in, so we have not eaten for months. Yesterday, we had to slaughter the last cat. But now I have warm mittens.
Maybe I'll call you Pollyanna or is that Pammyanna?
Maybe I'll call you Pollyanna or is that Pammyanna?
you fucker!!! it's a better name that your 'footfoot' garbagge.
Pam.
you fucker!!! it's a better name that your 'footfoot' garbagge.
Pam.
once again, you think it's all about you. That post was quoting -and aimed at- me.
Well that certainly was rude Pam, Foot wasn't even quoting you he was talking to Monster. I think you should go and find one of your keepers. You are out of control..:eyebrow:
Maybe I'll call you Pollyanna or is that Pammyanna?
I choose bannedanna
[COLOR="White"].[/COLOR]Here is my photo
Well that certainly was rude Pam, Foot wasn't even quoting you he was talking to Monster. I think you should go and find one of your keepers. You are out of control..:eyebrow:
YOU are out of control he said a verssion of my name 'pammy-anna.' the post is right there. you will not push me over the edge tonght!!! you try to make me think i am crazy. yet i see the words he has typed...you fucker! i am not out of 'control'...
Pam.
you fucker!!! it's a better name that your 'footfoot' garbagge.
Pam.
You should not be participating in online socializing. You just are not calm enough to understand it and follow the conversation completely.
I am a fuckee not a fucker
UT Please ban this Person PLEASE !!!!!
Crazy as the day is long...
You should not be participating in online socializing. You just are not calm enough to understand it and follow the conversation completely.
I am calm. and spell check is working again. give me one more chance and you will be satisfied. give me two more chances, and you will not be denied. the truth is always in between...
some people here are like a piece of glass on the the beach, just waiting to cut me. waiting to hurt me. looking to blow through me like a breeze...
I going to report him to Mr. undertoad...
Getting more upset, but not unhinged,
Pam.
YOU are out of control he said a verssion of my name 'pammy-anna.' the post is right there. you will not push me over the edge tonght!!! you try to make me think i am crazy. yet i see the words he has typed...you fucker! i am not out of 'control'...
Pam.
u r not the only pam. do you see me getting pissed off everytime someone calls a bad person/animal a monster? and you're only one letter short of spam -why don't you go get all pissed off about that?
Crazy as the day is long...
You are so mean. Mr Pammy is truly an asset here. My abs look most awesome from all the laughing exercise. plus here in Michigan, the day is only 27 minutes long.
UT Please ban this Person PLEASE !!!!!
No please do not. this is all i have left for communicattion.
Pam.
I am calm. and spell check is working again. give me one more chance and you will be satisfied. give me two more chances, and you will not be denied. the truth is always in between...
some people here are like a piece of glass on the the beach, just waiting to cut me. waiting to hurt me. looking to blow through me like a breeze...
I going to report him to Mr. undertoad...
Getting more upset, but not unhinged,
Pam.
F3 was not talking to you. He clearly quoted monster and was addressing her. Can you even explain why you would find it offensive if he was addressing you?
You are unhinged. Whether you like it or not, that is the truth. You are irrational, angry and confused. Do not participate in online socializing
for your own good.
It is a hell of a lot harder to understand people online than it is in real life. You are letting strangers on the internet cause you stress and anger over non-existent insults. F3 was joking with monster.
See your therapist. Show them these posts. Listen to their opinion.
[CENTER]Whether I'm right or whether I'm wrong
Whether I find a place in this world or never belong
I gotta be me, I've gotta be me
What else can I be but what I am
I want to live, not merely survive
And I won't give up this dream
Of life that keeps me alive
I gotta be me, I gotta be me
The dream that I see makes me what I am
I'll go it alone, that's how it must be
I can't be right for somebody else
If I'm not right for me
I gotta be free, I've gotta be free
Daring to try, to do it or die
I've gotta be me
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The Mr.Foot is indeed of unkindness to Mr. Pammy.
Has Mr. Understoat been alerted to this bad person?
SN where have you been! Where are the flowers you promised me?
F3 was not talking to you. He clearly quoted monster and was addressing her. Can you even explain why you would find it offensive if he was addressing you?
You are unhinged. Whether you like it or not, that is the truth. You are irrational, angry and confused. Do not participate in online socializing for your own good.
It is a hell of a lot harder to understand people online than it is in real life. You are letting strangers on the internet cause you stress and anger over non-existent insults. F3 was joking with monster.
See your therapist. Show them these posts. Listen to their opinion.
i do not know who 'f3' is. what am i missing here?? i am not getting upset at all. just a bit confused. and yes, i will admit...a bit angry...but that does not make me any less of of person than any of you. ....
Pam. or do you want to make fun ofme and call me 'pammy?'
Pensive Pam is the best troll I have seen in a long time.
Actually I think I will ban everyone else in this thread
SN where have you been! Where are the flowers you promised me?
I promised you flowers again? Had I been drinking? Did I promise to pay you back "the old fashioned way?"
How about I send you a packet of seeds?
Actually I think I will ban everyone else in this thread
you are not him! you aer not mr. undertoad. it is spelled differently. and that is not nice to him. i hope he sees this. take advantage of me because I am czech???? it will not work. never.
if he sees this, i hope you get banned... youfucker!!!
pam.
i do not know who 'f3' is.
If Pensive pam were to be banned then that would make her a...
cancelled Czech!
Try the steak! I'll be here all week
that hurts me in untrolled ways....
F3 certainly is a handsome devil, now back to the bottle of whiskey you promised me!
i do not know who 'f3' is. what am i missing here?? i am not getting upset at all. just a bit confused. and yes, i will admit...a bit angry...but that does not make me any less of of person than any of you. ....
Pam. or do you want to make fun ofme and call me 'pammy?'
F3 is footfootfoot, same thing. The person you called fucker without provocation. You do not fly off the handle and call someone a fucker if you are not upset and very angry. He was not even addressing you, so you are clearly very confused.
If Pensive pam were to be banned then that would make her a...
cancelled Czech!
Try the steak! I'll be here all week
SN now you have made me pee my pants you fucker!
If Pensive pam were to be banned then that would make her a...
cancelled Czech!
Try the steak! I'll be here all week
ha! ha!@ i understand teh joke. I am on my best behaviour tonight, YOU sir should be banned. not me. as long as i behave i will be he i think. you are the agggresor!! not me
Pam. and when Mr. undertoad sees this, perhaps, you will no longer be here!
SN now you have made me pee my pants you fucker!
I see you see my other thread!
you are not him! you aer not mr. undertoad. it is spelled differently. and that is not nice to him. i hope he sees this. take advantage of me because I am czech???? it will not work. never.
if he sees this, i hope you get banned... youfucker!!!
pam.
Again, you don't understand the dynamics of this board and are insulted/angry by a joke. Its just a joke. You cannot handle online socialization.
BTW...Undertoab was probably lumberjim, he likes to use sockpuppets*. He's someone who has been more kind to you than any1 else here.
*sockpuppet = a fake username
ha! ha!@ i understand teh joke. I am on my best behaviour tonight, YOU sir should be banned. not me. as long as i behave i will be he i think. you are the agggresor!! not me
Pam. and when Mr. undertoad sees this, perhaps, you will no longer be here!
Its a joke. You do not understand joking, you should not be online here.
F3 is footfootfoot, same thing. The person you called fucker without provocation. You do not fly off the handle and call someone a fucker if you are not upset and very angry. He was not even addressing you, so you are clearly very confused.
No Dana, he is trouble maker. he is a 'troller' he will be exposed!!!
i am not upset. i am calm now. you wait. time will tell all...
and we both know that. youu will see, i promise!!!
Your friend,
Pam.
*sockpuppet = a fake username
Great, next you're gonna tell her the secret password and handshake.
No Dana, he is trouble maker. he is a 'troller' he will be exposed!!!
i am not upset. i am calm now. you wait. time will tell all...
and we both know that. youu will see, i promise!!!
Your friend,
Pam.
You are not even comprehensive enough to tell me apart from dana.
SN has told a lot more corny jokes and has been here for years. He will not be banned.
footfootfoot is a troller. Teh Pam is truth. He has been clotting up these boreds for to long. Trolling since 2004 is his user title.
People are treated much better in the Private Forum where no one is made fun of.
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You are not even comprehensive enough to tell me apart from dana.
SN has told a lot more corny jokes and has been here for years. He will not be banned.
Yes! old mr B riddle me ree
A little wee man in a red red coat
A staff in his hand and a stone in his throat!
People are treated much better in the Private Forum where no one is made fun of.
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how can I join the pirate forum? Do I need a hook or parrot or anything?
She already told her about the secret forum:neutral:
maybe if we're lucky we'll both be banned and then we can start our own giant chihuahua forum
You are not even comprehensive enough to tell me apart from dana.
SN has told a lot more corny jokes and has been here for years. He will not be banned.
I like you both, and often get not sure. I do not like jokes. so am i a bad person?? what the fuck is o going on here??? who are u to judge me anyway?? i am having some wine and re-assessing this post. can somene start a new post?? i cant keepup.
ok, i sign it 'pammy',
is that good enough?
have at me.
O gawd MTP is mixing up SN and F3 one pees his pants and one is a troll!
maybe if we're lucky we'll both be banned and then we can start our own giant chihuahua forum
I don't like giant chihuahuas
>sulks<
Great, next you're gonna tell her the secret password and handshake.
fist bump, fist bump, pinky lock, patty cake, ass smack, cabbage patch, double high five
brosbeforehos
That would explain the smell of pee then...
fist bump, fist bump, pinky lock, patty cake, ass smack, cabbage patch, double high five
brosbeforehos
well it is almost midnight here. so i will put myself to bed. i am sure that when mr. underaod sees some of the response on here, he will not be plesed. so have at me. i will check tomorrow.
love me, or hate me. either way...it all the emotion i can get...
sweet dreams,
pam...
I don't like giant chihuahuas
>sulks<
Well what's this then?
O gawd MTP is mixing up SN and F3 one pees his pants and one is a troll!
No, I thought she was talking about SN the next time for making the Czech joke. I do get some of them mixed up tho (the ones that changed their UNs for awhile). She wants F3 banned for calling monster pammyanna.
Oooooh ya got me! That's dinky Pancho
its a dolphin
Damb it !!!
whale penis and this one is eating my popcorn!!! ;)
its a dolphin
Damb it !!!
lolled
I like you both, and often get not sure. I do not like jokes. so am i a bad person?? what the fuck is o going on here??? who are u to judge me anyway?? i am having some wine and re-assessing this post. can somene start a new post?? i cant keepup.
ok, i sign it 'pammy',
is that good enough?
have at me.
Jokes are 98.7654% divided by pi then times pi of what we do here. If you don't like them, then why are you here? We joke, we even turn fucking cancer into a joke. If you're hurt/offended by jokes all the time, you will not like it on this forum.
Well what's this then?
Thats a small chihuahua.
Jokes are 98.7654% divided by pi then times pi of what we do here. If you don't like them, then why are you here? We joke, we even turn fucking cancer into a joke. If you're hurt/offended by jokes all the time, you will not like it on this forum.
Even more so if you don't like jokes about you
Thats a small chihuahua.
yeah, well when Mr. You Know Who finds out about your joke about my joke about Nirvana then we'll see who is laughing
Even more so if you don't like jokes about you
What? Are insulting me? Think I don't like jokes about me just because I'm Texan. You sir, are rude. I do not like you. I shall tell Mr. Undertoab about this.
Fuckers,
MTP
What? Are insulting me? Think I don't like jokes about me just because I'm Texan. You sir, are rude. I do not like you. I shall tell Mr. Undertoab about this.
Fuckers,
MTP
OH! you're from Texas, I forgot. I'll tell the joke s-l-o-w-l-y then.
fuckers,
Love
Mr. Nutkin
Jokes are 98.7654% divided by pi then times pi of what we do here. If you don't like them, then why are you here? We joke, we even turn fucking cancer into a joke. If you're hurt/offended by jokes all the time, you will not like it on this forum.
well for once, there will be no break down tonight. i am beginnig to think i may make it!!! i am trying very hard!!! i know mr. udertoad knows that...
Goodnight to you all, and sweet dreams!!!
Pam!!!!! i love youall!!!!!!!!!
how can I join the pirate forum? Do I need a hook or parrot or anything?
You need to wear a patch ...
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No Dana, he is trouble maker. he is a 'troller' he will be exposed!!!
i am not upset. i am calm now. you wait. time will tell all...
and we both know that. youu will see, i promise!!!
Your friend,
Pam.
:corn:
*waiting for SN to be 'exposed'*
:D
[COLOR="White"].[/COLOR]Here is my photo
Here is my photo.
You look marvelous! So nice that you included your newborn in that photo! ;) Boy?
Here is my photo.
Wait - which one are you?
You need to wear a patch ...
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Patches? We don't need no stinking patches!
Infi!
Sexy plucker!
Thank you forf destroying my thread 'sunday girl'.
Pam.
Thank you forf destroying my thread 'sunday girl'.
That's what 'sunday girl' does.
She destroys threads.
And she doesn't care about your thread. She's pretty heartless, that girl.
That's what 'sunday girl' does.
She destroys threads.
And she doesn't care about your thread. She's pretty heartless, that girl.
I think she is bitter and angry woman. Yes, she is very bitter. There is no need for that. how have you been brianna??
Your friend,
Pam.
Brianna is more bitter, better bitter than brit bitter. Bet bitter bitterns better Brianna's bitter.
Now, I've been wondering: where can I get some of that 'bitter corn' I keep hearing about? I believe my ancestors called it 'bitter maize.'
Now, I've been wondering: where can I get some of that 'bitter corn' I keep hearing about? I believe my ancestors called it 'bitter maize.'
I would not know. you act like a child.
Pam.
Sundae is bitter scorn, just like MTP. It's because they cannot get a man. Why can't they get a man? They have no meatloaf recipe and they talk incessantly about insincere kangaroos and the Lebanese problem.
I don't think they deserve to have a man, do you?
I have been very well and fine. I am refining my meatloaf recipe in anticipation of my man friend coming over tomorrow and having meatloaf dinner with me. I hope he likes it. But I won't be putting any grated carrots in it like Mr. wolf suggested!! That is disgusting and I don't think Mr. wolf knows very much about meatloaf OR men!!1
If they tried the bitter corn in their meatloaf I bet they'd get a man.
Sundae is bitter scorn, just like MTP. It's because they cannot get a man. Why can't they get a man? They have no meatloaf recipe and they talk incessantly about insincere kangaroos and the Lebanese problem.
I don't think they deserve to have a man, do you?
I have been very well and fine. I am refining my meatloaf recipe in anticipation of my man friend coming over tomorrow and having meatloaf dinner with me. I hope he likes it. But I won't be putting any grated carrots in it like Mr. wolf suggested!! That is disgusting and I don't think Mr. wolf knows very much about meatloaf OR men!!1
I believe it's Mrs. Wolf. i have seen her photo. as for meatloaf, be sure to use eggs and BBQ sauce. you are proper, Sundae is 'bitter scorn.' I have make amends with MTP i think...and we are on way to a friendship i believe... ALL THE BEST!!!! PAM!!!
I just noticed that there is a user called Pensive Monkey, believe it or not.
Sundae is bitter scorn, just like MTP. It's because they cannot get a man. Why can't they get a man? They have no meatloaf recipe and they talk incessantly about insincere kangaroos and the Lebanese problem.
I don't think they deserve to have a man, do you?
I have been very well and fine. I am refining my meatloaf recipe in anticipation of my man friend coming over tomorrow and having meatloaf dinner with me. I hope he likes it. But I won't be putting any grated carrots in it like Mr. wolf suggested!! That is disgusting and I don't think Mr. wolf knows very much about meatloaf OR men!!1
*Chuckles*
I do not use BBQ sauce or brown sugar with my meatloaf. Ketchup only!
Well, and then diced tomatoes, garlic, onion, mushrooms, cracker crumbs and sometimes Italian sausage. I have also been known to use pickled jalapeños.
Sundae and I are so much alike I think we are sisters...maybe she is the sister my mom gave up for adoption!
How are you doing Sundae sister? I am so glad to finally find you! I can't believe you ended up all the way across the pond. Do you have high tea and stick your pinky out? I saw this British comedy one time, maybe you have heard of it, called 'Keeping Up Appearances'....there is this one lady and her last name is Bucket but she insists on it being said bouquet. Her accent is really funny too, do you have an accent? Oh I'm so excited I think you might be my long lost sister! Love your sister MTP!!!!!
This thread, it gives me the will to carry on.