Last nights meltdown...

pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 5:30 pm
First, I would like to thank Mr. Undertoad for putting up with me. As well as the community. I do not know where to start; as I have been pushed down so far. I did post my number. I did receive a call from CA and MD. My assistant took call. Sadly, he said one call only played music, the other did not talk. Usually Sarah helps me, but she was sick so her brother was with me for the night.

I will come clean. Yes, I was on that other site. However many of the posts I have writeen there have been severly edit by other posters as well as webmaster.

I do not post about politicaly things. Yes, I do have other neurological issues that I did speak of on that site, but I did not here.
I had a giant meltdown last night I will admit that.

I was upset. Big Sarge is proper in what he said. I do belong to the Gotham's Writer Club, BUT I am still me. I was mad because I lost a writing competition that many feel, including me, that I should have won. I did come in 2nd place from 800+ entries. The other girl that won knew I was better and was ashamed. I stormed out of the place and ran. That club does not deserve me. I deserve to be here.
As for Big Sarge. I know who he is. I offer peace...

always-
Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 5:52 pm
pensive pam;726206 wrote:
Take care to you all...

I will never return. so please do not respond, as I will not be around to see it.

My lover is Siobhan.

Farewell,

Pam.



What you are is a liar, drama queen and troll. Those are just the least of what you are.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 5:55 pm
morethanpretty;726343 wrote:
What you are is a liar, drama queen and troll. Those are just the least of what you are.


A drama queen? Yes. A liar? No. A troll? I do not live under bridge...

Pam.
glatt • Apr 23, 2011 5:57 pm
I'm not sure that breaking a promise is the same thing as lying. Lying is about deceit, and breaking a promise is more like not following through.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 6:06 pm
glatt;726346 wrote:
I'm not sure that breaking a promise is the same thing as lying. Lying is about deceit, and breaking a promise is more like not following through.


Thank you for your kind words. I made a mistake. My depression and emotions get me. But, I work on getting them better...

I am just so lost. Too many nights under the 'midnight sun.' Too much wine. At times, I am at a bar - and there is a music band playing there. I really can not hear the music that well. Sometimes I think that is best.

and later that night, I stumble home. I know people stare. I know what they think of me. But I do not care. But then when I wake up in the morning,...I do care.

thank you Mr. glatt,
Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 6:27 pm
glatt;726346 wrote:
I'm not sure that breaking a promise is the same thing as lying. Lying is about deceit, and breaking a promise is more like not following through.


She promised she would do something and then she did not. That is a lie in my book. Plus she never ever intended what she said, another way it was a lie.
Pico and ME • Apr 23, 2011 6:31 pm
If the whole persona is a lie, well then.....
jimhelm • Apr 23, 2011 6:31 pm
why are you taking it so personally, mort?

You should be thanking her for being the most interesting noob in ....oh...forever.
jimhelm • Apr 23, 2011 6:32 pm
Pico and ME;726371 wrote:
If the whole persona is a lie, well then.....


applause? holy awesome sock puppet?
Pico and ME • Apr 23, 2011 6:35 pm
...why take it so seriously.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 6:37 pm
morethanpretty;726365 wrote:
She promised she would do something and then she did not. That is a lie in my book. Plus she never ever intended what she said, another way it was a lie.


At the time I made the statement. I did mean it. And now i regret it. I have stated that here. You seem very scorn. Perhaps some man lied to you??? I do not know.

But you are bitter I think. What is so troubling you in life? Perhaps I can help if you need to talke to someone.

Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 6:38 pm
jimhelm;726373 wrote:
why are you taking it so personally, mort?

You should be thanking her for being the most interesting noob in ....oh...forever.


Oh what a tangled web we weave,
When first we practice to deceive.


I'm just telling the truth. Truth is not personal.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 6:41 pm
pensive pam;726377 wrote:
At the time I made the statement. I did mean it. And now i regret it. I have stated that here. You seem very scorn. Perhaps some man lied to you??? I do not know.

But you are bitter I think. What is so troubling you in life? Perhaps I can help if you need to talke to someone.

Pam.


If you are a man, then yes, a man lied to me.
You made a statement you did not mean. That means you lied. I do not like liars, that does not mean I'm bitter. I'd pray to god before I came to you for help and I'm agnostic.

trusting in Jesus before pathetic pam,
MTP
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 6:45 pm
morethanpretty;726379 wrote:
If you are a man, then yes, a man lied to me.
You made a statement you did not mean. That means you lied. I do not like liars, that does not mean I'm bitter. I'd pray to god before I came to you for help and I'm agnostic.

trusting in Jesus before pathetic pam,
MTP


yes, you are bitter. and i did not lie. a woman has the right to change her mind at any time. unless YOU are a man, you should know this...

Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 6:52 pm
pensive pam;726381 wrote:
yes, you are bitter. and i did not lie. a woman has the right to change her mind at any time. unless YOU are a man, you should know this...

Pam.


No women do not have the right to be liars. I am a woman and I know that. You want to put a bad face on females when we've been struggling for equality and to get rid of the negative stereotypes about us, and expect me to accept that? Nope. If I am bitter, it is because of things like you perpetuating a negative stereotype of my gender.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 6:58 pm
morethanpretty;726386 wrote:
No women do not have the right to be liars. I am a woman and I know that. You want to put a bad face on females when we've been struggling for equality and to get rid of the negative stereotypes about us, and expect me to accept that? Nope. If I am bitter, it is because of things like you perpetuating a negative stereotype of my gender.


I am of the same gender obviously. You are bitter. I can tell. I know about these things... so just tell me why??? Maybe u should change your name to 'more than bitter,' ....no???

Happy,
Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 7:03 pm
pensive pam;726388 wrote:
I am of the same gender obviously. You are bitter. I can tell. I know about these things... so just tell me why??? Maybe u should change your name to 'more than bitter,' ....no???

Happy,
Pam.


You are not "obviously" the same gender as me. I do not have to recognize scum like you is even human. I did tell you why you make me bitter, you're just too big of a idiot to grasp it. You know fucktwat and thats all.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:10 pm
morethanpretty;726390 wrote:
You are not "obviously" the same gender as me. I do not have to recognize scum like you is even human. I did tell you why you make me bitter, you're just too big of a idiot to grasp it. You know fucktwat and thats all.


Now I am getting upset! typical 'potty mouth' american girl from west united states! who can't satisfy her husband!

Pam!
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 7:10 pm
pensive pam;726392 wrote:
Now I am getting upset! typical 'potty mouth' american girl from west united states! who can't satisfy her husband!

Pam!


I'm not dumb enough to be married dipshit.
I'm not the one who lets a man abuse me, physically or emotionally, neither do I abuse my men in such a way.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:11 pm
morethanpretty;726393 wrote:
I'm not dumb enough to be married dipshit.


Perhaps, because no man will take u???

Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 7:20 pm
I have been proposed to and I turned it down. I'm currently dating a guy who wants more from me than I want from him. I am desired by many men because I have a well rounded personality (just not ass well rounded as my ass ;)), something you are lacking. I'm not a pathetic empty brained fucktwat who needs a man to make me feel fulfilled or any way take care of me. I also don't need my parents to take care of me or send me money.

Can take care of myself,
MTP
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:27 pm
morethanpretty;726396 wrote:
I have been proposed to and I turned it down. I'm currently dating a guy who wants more from me than I want from him. I am desired by many men because I have a well rounded personality (just not ass well rounded as my ass ;)), something you are lacking. I'm not a pathetic empty brained fucktwat who needs a man to make me feel fulfilled or any way take care of me. I also don't need my parents to take care of me or send me money.

Can take care of myself,
MTP


I am glad you turned down the proposed. You saved that man a life of misery...

Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 7:33 pm
pensive pam;726401 wrote:
I am glad you turned down the proposed. You saved that man a life of misery...

Pam.


Miserable people will have miserable lives no matter what. Maybe I should hook him up with you, then y'all could be miserable together? Misery loves company.

Matchmaking,
MTP
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 7:34 pm
pensive pam;726401 wrote:
I am glad you turned down the proposed. You saved that man a life of misery...

Pam.


Its called a "proposal" idiot. You can't write. Thats why you lost a writing competition.

Bursting your bubble,
MTP
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:40 pm
morethanpretty;726406 wrote:
Its called a "proposal" idiot. You can't write. Thats why you lost a writing competition.

Bursting your bubble,
MTP


It's called a type, and being foreign. The goal of writing is to get interest... I have my writings proof read, but not always on here...

You are not an 'interesting' poster,...I suggest you retire...there is nobody talking about you...at ALL!

Pam.
WINNING.
DanaC • Apr 23, 2011 7:42 pm
We are talking about her. You just can't see the posts where we talk about MTP 'cause you don't have access to that forum yet. That section doesn't even show on the board menu until Undertoad gives you access.


It's where we share the really Not Safe For Work pictures. Not that vanilla shit in the public Dwellar NSFW thread.

MTP, me, SG, Brianna and Infi have a thread going there where we compare snatches (which is a Canadian slang word for vagina).

It's called Ho Compare (one for the Brits :p) and there's another one called ComparetheMerkindotcom (also for the Brits).

Maybe Undertoad will let you have access to that forum. I don't know though. You haven't been with us very long. It usually takes a good few weeks, or even months.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:45 pm
DanaC;726410 wrote:
We are talking about her. You just can't see the posts where we talk about MTP 'cause you don't have access to that forum yet. That section doesn't even show on the board menu until Undertoad gives you access.


Are you talking to me?? Who are you speaking of?? What access do I not have?? If you are speaking of me, when will Mr. Undertoad give me access???

Pam.
elSicomoro • Apr 23, 2011 7:48 pm
Yeah...there's also the wang section where we regularly show off whose dick is longer.
DanaC • Apr 23, 2011 7:49 pm
I can't remember what i did to get acces, because I have been here for a lot of years and I was given access some time ago. I think maybe you have to request access? Yres, i think that was it. I sent Undertoad a PM asking him for access to the Secret Forum.
DanaC • Apr 23, 2011 7:50 pm
sycamore;726413 wrote:
Yeah...there's also the wang section where we regularly show off whose dick is longer.


I think that's my favourite thread in the whole Secret Forum.

Was so surprised when Draxxie won! Who'd have thunk it?
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:51 pm
DanaC;726410 wrote:
We are talking about her. You just can't see the posts where we talk about MTP 'cause you don't have access to that forum yet. That section doesn't even show on the board menu until Undertoad gives you access.


It's where we share the really Not Safe For Work pictures. Not that vanilla shit in the public Dwellar NSFW thread.

MTP, me, SG, Brianna and Infi have a thread going there where we compare snatches (which is a Canadian slang word for vagina).

It's called Ho Compare (one for the Brits :p) and there's another one called ComparetheMerkindotcom (also for the Brits).

Maybe Undertoad will let you have access to that forum. I don't know though. You haven't been with us very long. It usually takes a good few weeks, or even months.


Ok, since we are speaking of 'vagina,' I have a confession to make... and hopefully if I make it through 'training' here, Mr. Undertaod will grant me permission. Can you ask of my be-half?? My confession is that I do not shave my 'cooter.' I am not religeouss, but if 'god' gave me hair there, should I not have it there?? Of course I shave other areas at times. But I like being 'natural.' Is that wrong of me?? American women get expressive over 'waxing' their hair I do not. Is that -am I , normal??

Pam.
DanaC • Apr 23, 2011 7:53 pm
I dunno. I let mine grow long and then plait it.


So far though, I think the best 'snatch shot' has to be Sundae's That pink hair dye makes her look very striking.
I can't ask Undertoad for you I'm afraid. It has to be the person seeking access that requests it. It's somewhere in the rules I think. No, wait, sorry. I think the rules have been rewtritten. It definately used to be in the old rules though.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 7:56 pm
pensive pam;726409 wrote:
It's called a type, and being foreign. The goal of writing is to get interest... I have my writings proof read, but not always on here...

You are not an 'interesting' poster,...I suggest you retire...there is nobody talking about you...at ALL!

Pam.
WINNING.


Bad writing is not a 'type,' you came here at 11, assuming you are at least 18, then you've had 7 years to learn the language. You are a complete idiot if you haven't learn basic vocabulary words like "proposal." Proof reading can only correct spelling and grammatic errors, not bad writing. I like how you defend your poor vocabulary by calling it a type and then try to excuse as because you are foreign in the same sentence. Its one or the other. Your logic skills are minuscule at best and you can't blame that on being foreign.

I am being talked about and to plenty on the part of the forum you do not have access too.

Popular,
MTP
sexobon • Apr 23, 2011 7:56 pm
DanaC;726410 wrote:
We are talking about her. You just can't see the posts where we talk about MTP 'cause you don't have access to that forum yet. That section doesn't even show on the board menu until Undertoad gives you access. ...

... Maybe Undertoad will let you have access to that forum. I don't know though. You haven't been with us very long. It usually takes a good few weeks, or even months.

You hush now Dana, we girls had to work hard to get Mr. Undertoad to let us into that forum, I don't think some Pammy come lately should be able to join right away even if Mr. Undertoad is sweet on her.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 7:58 pm
DanaC;726418 wrote:
I dunno. I let mine grow long and then plait it.


So far though, I think the best 'snatch shot' has to be Sundae's That pink hair dye makes her look very striking.
I can't ask Undertoad for you I'm afraid. It has to be the person seeking access that requests it. It's somewhere in the rules I think. No, wait, sorry. I think the rules have been rewtritten. It definately used to be in the old rules though.


I will admit, I do have crush on you. I know I do. sorry.
When I watch porno, I like the woman to be naturale.
If I see a woman who is shaved American style, I do not like that at all. and I search for a new porno on the internet. I have dark hair, so my 'bush' (as they say in America) is dark. I do not know why I am telling you this. I want to see the 'private chat' you speak of, but I do not wish to distrub Mr. Undertoad.

Your friend,
Pam.
DanaC • Apr 23, 2011 7:58 pm
Crap. Sorry. I probably should have kept quiet.

I dunno though. It just seems unfair to keep her out of it...


But hey: the collective will and all that. I'll just let it drop.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 8:01 pm
DanaC;726422 wrote:
Crap. Sorry. I probably should have kept quiet.

I dunno though. It just seems unfair to keep her out of it...


But hey: the collective will and all that. I'll just let it drop.


that is ok, if i must be left out. I understand. No worries...
i am used to it...

Pam.
morethanpretty • Apr 23, 2011 8:04 pm
She has to earn the privilege just like the rest of us Dani. You can't give her a pass just because she's foreign and deaf. If she doesn't want to be made fun of for it, then she shouldn't get special privileges either.

Equally yours,

MTP
Nirvana • Apr 23, 2011 9:41 pm
Pam why do have a "keeper' like an inmate at an asylum??
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 9:44 pm
Nirvana;726462 wrote:
Pam why do have a "keeper' like an inmate at an asylum??


I have no idea what you are asking me??

Pam.
Nirvana • Apr 23, 2011 9:51 pm
Maybe your assistant can explain it to you...
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 9:57 pm
Nirvana;726467 wrote:
Maybe your assistant can explain it to you...


I can read...so probably not...
Pam
Nirvana • Apr 23, 2011 9:59 pm
Yes comprehension does take a few more IQ points. Anyway You mentioned Cooter was he your boyfriend?
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 10:02 pm
Nirvana;726471 wrote:
Yes comprehension does take a few more IQ points. Anyway You mentioned Cooter was he your boyfriend?


Is that a picture of You?? I do not know you...and I have gone back to being a lesbian. I LOVE SHIOVAN!!!!

What is it that you are seeking from me?? I am having much wine!!! I am drinking...but I do not think Jesus will return tomorrow!!!

Love!!!
Pam.
Nirvana • Apr 23, 2011 10:07 pm
Ok well I am off to the private forum then bye!
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 10:09 pm
Nirvana;726474 wrote:
Ok well I am off to the private forum then bye!


How do I join the 'private forum???'
Please tell me...

Pam
Nirvana • Apr 23, 2011 10:20 pm
I am not sure for you it has to do with how many years you are hear and some kind of secret handshake and nakid pix. I had to send a photo of my breasts which are quite impressive if I do say so myself. All the dairy cows are jealous!
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 10:24 pm
Nirvana;726480 wrote:
I am not sure for you it has to do with how many years you are hear and some kind of secret handshake and nakid pix. I had to send a photo of my breasts which are quite impressive if I do say so myself. All the dairy cows are jealous!


So what you are saying is that there is not spot for me in the forum??? I am very hurt by that...if that is true. I hope it is not. I would ask Mr. undertaod about this, but I wish not to distrub him.
This is greatly upsettting to me... and now I feel sick. I hope you ar happy. NOT FAIR TO ME!!!!!

Angry!
Pam.
Nirvana • Apr 23, 2011 10:33 pm
I am just a member I have no control, they have a secret meeting to choose private members. One day they just said I was in. But they don't really let angry people in it upsets the other members.

You would not be allowed to post in the private forum for about a year. Just read.
DanaC • Apr 23, 2011 10:35 pm
and look at the pics and videos
ZenGum • Apr 23, 2011 10:37 pm
I still have no control over my private member.

Especially when Dana, Nirvarna and MTP start flirting with each other.
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 10:38 pm
so where can i view this forum even if i am not worthy of joining??

Pam.
Big Sarge • Apr 23, 2011 10:44 pm
Here. You can my access link. I can only view because I don't have full priviliges yet.
http://cellar.org/secret
jimhelm • Apr 23, 2011 11:49 pm
pensive pam;726492 wrote:
so where can i view this forum even if i am not worthy of joining??

Pam.


pro tip: the inner circle is the chat room. link is at the bottom of every page.

eastern time 10 pm -1am tuesday - saturday. bring your own beer
pensive pam • Apr 23, 2011 11:54 pm
jimhelm;726507 wrote:
pro tip: the inner circle is the chat room. link is at the bottom of every page.

eastern time 10 pm -1am tuesday - saturday. bring your own beer


I can not find the link. yet time is still here. you are part of the society that is toying with me. there is not link.

Pam.
jimhelm • Apr 24, 2011 3:02 am
i'm not toying with you. I'm rooting for you.
Clodfobble • Apr 24, 2011 8:59 am
At the very, very bottom of the page, there are five links:

Eat cookies · Cellar chat · cllr.me · Contact Us - The Cellar - Archive - Top
ZenGum • Apr 24, 2011 9:07 am
She was in chat earlier today.

Kinda drunk though, so she might not remember how she got there.
HungLikeJesus • Apr 24, 2011 1:44 pm
pensive pam;726473 wrote:
...
I am drinking...but I do not think Jesus will return tomorrow!!!
...


Here I am!
monster • Apr 24, 2011 7:57 pm
HungLikeJesus;726584 wrote:
Here I am!


I gotta stop this snorting business...
pensive pam • Apr 24, 2011 8:01 pm
HungLikeJesus;726584 wrote:
Here I am!


that was funny!!! cheered me up a lot!!! why did you chose to make your return to this forum??? Perhaps, I was thining you would have show up in times Square. and mayor bloomberg could have put you on the jumbotron tv that is there! welcome Jesus!!! what had took you so long???

Always -
Pam