New Beginnings
You swore till death do us part
but you ripped out my heart
left me in a crumpled heap
with only my tears to keep
when does the heartbreak end??
how can my mind comprehend
when will it stop feeling like a dream
full of silent, neverending screams
lifting my eyes up to the sky
asking the stars to help me deny
stumbling through the pain
just so much acid in my veins
tasting the liquid salt on my lips
on my broken dreams I slip
raging and flailing at fate
her wicked wiles I berate
oh why me? I rage
you must learn to turn the page
she softly whispers in my ear
new beginnings always start with tears
Stormy
07/08/2003
How it feels
Sparks.......heating, flying, igniting
I find your voice is like whispers down my spine
I shiver
Thoughts.........exploding, spreading, igniting
I watch your face in fascination
I gasp
Touches..........teasing, tantalizing, tormenting
I close my eyes in anticipation
I moan
Sensations...wanting, needing, seeking
I reach out to feel your love
I sigh
Hearts......pounding, pulsating, beating as one
I desire to explore every inch
I bite my lip
Tension,....mine, yours, and ours (the unknown)
I slide a fingers down your torso
I grit my teeth
Exploration....mouth, body, mind
I havent enough time for it all
I crave
Desires...holding, kissing, enfolding
I want to give and feel it all
I submit
Love...hearts afire, dreams galore, thoughts in sync
It is all right in front of me
I grasp
Night....soft sleep, cuddles, warm breath
I wrap myself around you
I sleep
Tomorrow...unknown, terrifying, exciting
I want to know what it holds
I dream
Stormy
02/03/03
Every so often, something reminds me
Of the searing loss of innocence
The shadow of hopeless despair
Touches my soul as the music plays
Every so often, I catch a glimpse
Of unfettered freedom and possibilities
My feet dance for a moment before
Reality anchors them to the cold gray earth
Every so often, I hear a familiar voice
As faint words echo across my mind
But the warm caress of whispers
Fade to an indistinct memory
Every so often, I feel young and pretty
Untouched by the ravages of age and pain
The fragile illusion disintegrates
As truth mocks me raucously
Every so often, time stands still
Balanced on the thin silver line
Between what was and what will be
Suspended for a fraction of a moment
09/14/09
Nice Stormie.
You reminded me how much I miss that momentary feeling I sometimes used to get when I was younger...just out of the blue...how something great was going to happen to me. It was never defined, but I would be all lit up inside and hopeful because of it. I wish it would come back.
Thanks. I do remember those moments...when life was exciting and the future limitless. They passed so quickly! The majority of it is behind me...and that makes me sad. I spent entirely too much time thinking...I'll do that eventually, I'll get to it, I can't afford it now, maybe someday....and someday has boiled down to now or never.
Do it now or forever live with the regrets.