The Thoughts I Don't Speak

[anonymous]

I should have a stronger support network. Well, I do have people, not many, but I don't talk to them enough about the frequency and intensity of painful issues that I've been struggling with for a long, long time. For various reasons: don't know how, don't want to burden them, afraid of rejection, etc.

I have a counselor, but I usually avoid anything but maintenance work that barely scratches the surface--I haven't opened up about the worst parts. Maybe I should join a group session, and that would help, being around others who might understand. Maybe, but I haven't done any of these things.

The very hard things, sometimes I write in a journal. I think I am going to do that here. It might be the kind of sharing that I desperately need--letting people see some of the things that I always hide. This isn't easy or natural for me.

I'm not sure where this belongs (or if it belongs) but there is a poll above.