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BigV · 11-17-2019, 11:54 AM

catharsis, sadness, happiness, memories, reflection, ... it's connection, evidence of a lasting connection.

I only know you a tiny bit monster, but I like you, you're important to me. You're my friend; that's why I say it's ok, you're gonna be ok.

side note:
fuckin red robin dj, wtf man?

Gravdigr · 11-17-2019, 03:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by monster

This shit is never going to get easier.

Yes it will.

limey · 11-17-2019, 03:56 PM

Being blindsided is the worst. But it’s OK to cry, you know?

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Dude111 · 11-17-2019, 06:06 PM

Im so sorry monster,I feel so bad for ya buddy

lumberjim · 11-18-2019, 08:13 AM

Shows you he's not really gone. You still feel him.

Gravdigr · 11-18-2019, 06:50 PM

That.

monster · 11-18-2019, 08:37 PM

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Originally Posted by monster

I really did....

but can you guys see this? ...edited, I think this version might work

https://www.facebook.com/anne.mackin...0MjQwNDc0MjQ0/

oh this was good....

BigV · 11-18-2019, 08:49 PM

Fear and surprise and ruthless efficiency and...

LOL!!!

Gravdigr · 11-19-2019, 07:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by monster

oh this was good....

It really was.

monster · 11-19-2019, 08:21 PM

thanks for being there ....again... peeps

monster · 03-14-2020, 12:50 AM

second anniversary today (technically yesterday). Friday 13th (I like Friday 13ths)

I still had the ashes in a box bothering me by their existence. The two oldest sprogs and I wanted nothing to do with them. It's just ash. Youngest decided he wasn't sure if he might want us to do something/it might be meaningful ash, so I hung on. Been hanging on a peg in the garage.

My plan if we had to do anything other than toss them in the trash was to dump them in "The Swamp" at the paintball field he used to play at most often called H3ll Surv1vors (where there is now a trail named after him). It's near Hell, MI.

Life has been especially rough recently. I met my friend as usual for our Friday morning workout and mentioned this elephant in the room and whined about how I was really not keen on even opening the box etc etc. and then I'd probably find it hard to get rid of the box.....

She suggested that Friday 13 in Hell might be the perfect solution and offered to do it for me. So I went home and asked youngest how he felt about it now and he said .... "just ash".

Paintball field is open weekends only in winter, so we drove there, snuck on via the campsite entrance and the deed is done. And I did it. At the last minute I big-brave-girled it. Not quite The Swamp -too hard to get to- but same body of water. And then I took the googly eyes off the box (that I had placed there the day i picked it up to make me feel better) and stuck them on one of the structures on the field.

closure of a sort.

i left the damn box there too. In a recycling can for similar plastics.

Boom.

I just needed to share this but am wary of being more public because I didn't tell the oldest two or his mom (because she is currently dealing with her daughter being hospitalized and daughter's husband being an absolute twat (as my sister put it). I figured they'd be cool and needed to act while the momentum was there. So I'm telling all y'all. It is a done deed. If they ever ask what happened to the stuff, I think they'll like the answer

Flint · 03-14-2020, 02:02 AM

I hope your brain feels like you've done something in some kind of way, even if it just shifts something from one kind of thing to a slightly different kind of thing, like shifting from one foot to another. Presumably, over time, if you shift things around enough, all the heavy stuff falls to the bottom, like a can of mixed nuts.

xoxoxoBruce · 03-14-2020, 04:37 AM

Maybe a little bit of closure, at least one less decision. I'm glad to hear you put on your big girl pants, I think you'd regret it later if you hadn't. You done good.

Clodfobble · 03-14-2020, 07:49 AM

The googly eyes made me cry. I'm glad this is something you were able to do, for yourself and your kids and everyone who knew him.

limey · 03-14-2020, 06:28 PM

Sounds like you did just the right thing. Sometimes the best ideas just pop up like that. Good on yer, monster!

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11-17-2019, 11:54 AM	#121
BigV Goon Squad Leader Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Seattle Posts: 27,063	catharsis, sadness, happiness, memories, reflection, ... it's connection, evidence of a lasting connection. I only know you a tiny bit monster, but I like you, you're important to me. You're my friend; that's why I say it's ok, you're gonna be ok. side note: fuckin red robin dj, wtf man? __________________ Be Just and Fear Not.

11-17-2019, 03:56 PM	#123
limey Encroaching on your decrees Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: An island within the south-west coast of Scotland Posts: 7,016	Being blindsided is the worst. But it’s OK to cry, you know? Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Living it up on the edge ... of civilisation, within the southwest coast of

11-18-2019, 08:13 AM	#125
lumberjim I can hear my ears Join Date: Oct 2003 Posts: 25,571	Shows you he's not really gone. You still feel him. __________________ This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality Embrace this moment, remember We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion ~MJKeenan

11-18-2019, 06:50 PM	#126
Gravdigr The Un-Tuckian Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Central...KY that is Posts: 39,517	That. __________________ These statements have not been evaluated by the FDA, EPA, FBI, DEA, CDC, or FDIC. These statements are not intended to diagnose, cause, treat, cure, or prevent any disease. If you feel you have been harmed/offended by, or, disagree with any of the above statements or images, please feel free to fuck right off.

11-18-2019, 08:49 PM	#128
BigV Goon Squad Leader Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Seattle Posts: 27,063	Fear and surprise and ruthless efficiency and... LOL!!! __________________ Be Just and Fear Not.

11-17-2019, 06:06 PM	#124
Dude111 An Awesome Dude Join Date: Oct 2015 Posts: 1,111	Im so sorry monster,I feel so bad for ya buddy

11-19-2019, 08:21 PM	#130
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	thanks for being there ....again... peeps __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

03-14-2020, 12:50 AM	#131
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	second anniversary today (technically yesterday). Friday 13th (I like Friday 13ths) I still had the ashes in a box bothering me by their existence. The two oldest sprogs and I wanted nothing to do with them. It's just ash. Youngest decided he wasn't sure if he might want us to do something/it might be meaningful ash, so I hung on. Been hanging on a peg in the garage. My plan if we had to do anything other than toss them in the trash was to dump them in "The Swamp" at the paintball field he used to play at most often called H3ll Surv1vors (where there is now a trail named after him). It's near Hell, MI. Life has been especially rough recently. I met my friend as usual for our Friday morning workout and mentioned this elephant in the room and whined about how I was really not keen on even opening the box etc etc. and then I'd probably find it hard to get rid of the box..... She suggested that Friday 13 in Hell might be the perfect solution and offered to do it for me. So I went home and asked youngest how he felt about it now and he said .... "just ash". Paintball field is open weekends only in winter, so we drove there, snuck on via the campsite entrance and the deed is done. And I did it. At the last minute I big-brave-girled it. Not quite The Swamp -too hard to get to- but same body of water. And then I took the googly eyes off the box (that I had placed there the day i picked it up to make me feel better) and stuck them on one of the structures on the field. closure of a sort. i left the damn box there too. In a recycling can for similar plastics. Boom. I just needed to share this but am wary of being more public because I didn't tell the oldest two or his mom (because she is currently dealing with her daughter being hospitalized and daughter's husband being an absolute twat (as my sister put it). I figured they'd be cool and needed to act while the momentum was there. So I'm telling all y'all. It is a done deed. If they ever ask what happened to the stuff, I think they'll like the answer __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

03-14-2020, 02:02 AM	#132
Flint Snowflake Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Dystopia Posts: 13,136	I hope your brain feels like you've done something in some kind of way, even if it just shifts something from one kind of thing to a slightly different kind of thing, like shifting from one foot to another. Presumably, over time, if you shift things around enough, all the heavy stuff falls to the bottom, like a can of mixed nuts. __________________ **************** There's a level of facility that everyone needs to accomplish, and from there it's a matter of deciding for yourself how important ultra-facility is to your expression. ... I found, like Joseph Campbell said, if you just follow whatever gives you a little joy or excitement or awe, then you're on the right track. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Terry Bozzio**

03-14-2020, 04:37 AM	#133
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	Maybe a little bit of closure, at least one less decision. I'm glad to hear you put on your big girl pants, I think you'd regret it later if you hadn't. You done good. __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

03-14-2020, 07:49 AM	#134
Clodfobble UNDER CONDITIONAL MITIGATION Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Austin, TX Posts: 20,012	The googly eyes made me cry. I'm glad this is something you were able to do, for yourself and your kids and everyone who knew him. __________________ My book My other book My spirit animal

03-14-2020, 06:28 PM	#135
limey Encroaching on your decrees Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: An island within the south-west coast of Scotland Posts: 7,016	Sounds like you did just the right thing. Sometimes the best ideas just pop up like that. Good on yer, monster! Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk __________________ Living it up on the edge ... of civilisation, within the southwest coast of

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