Laebedah's Poetry

[laebedahs]

Inspired by Sun Sparkz's generosity, I've decided to share some poems I've written. I've lost a lot of the ones I've written in the past, unfortunately. Some are dark, most are simple, some are short, and some are off the wall.

[laebedahs]

I am torn
Torn between who I need to love
and between who I want to love
I am unable to win
Emotion trickles from my skin
dousing all those who stand in my way.
Turn the tap off, they might say!
Ha, as if it is easy!
The attempt is not measely.

But I must try
I must
to protect those I care for
even though I wish for more
even though I am so torn.
Again.

[laebedahs]

Not knowing someone
yet becoming so attached
ruins my heart
my spirit.
The pain is foolish;
why does it hurt so?
I barely knew her
yet she showed earnest interest.

Will things ever change?
Will life get better?
Of course I know it will
but for now, this
the pain
is what I feel.

And for now,
that pain is eternity.

[laebedahs]

I only see her in passing
a small wave here
a half smile there
but I can tell she does not mean it.

She wants nothing between us
not a relationship, not a friendship
not even to know who I am.
I know I cannot have her in any way.

I try to forget her but she burns in my mind,
a candle refusing to be extinguished.
The tears from my eyes do not put out the fire
but simply cause it to burn brighter.

But still I dwell on what I could have done different
what went wrong, where I went wrong.
Why I am so wrong.

[laebedahs]

In the mind of one who suffers
a spec of life, a change of direction
can alter that who surely is bold.

Is it I who suffer? No, no…
It is a girl, a woman of love and desire,
with a mate who is not of the same qualites.
He is cold, lifeless, consumed by comfort and gluttony.

Will she vacate?
Will she walk from a life of uncertainy, pain, and unhappiness?
The one who loves her is not sure,
he is confused, worried.
Anger seeps from the wounds of anger,
trickling from a branched stream of a massive river.

But fear not!
Massive blocks of rock protude proudly,
fearless of their surroundings
to bar the unsought free flowing agony.

The mate is of ice within his veins,
the walls are in place.

What will happen now?

[laebedahs]

Bellowed, hear of the dark night
grasping the blinking might.
Go ahead and try a flight
or die among lonely the fight.

Burn the fire of the horror
horror of the sky.
There they be try as they might.
The fire golden burning bright.
Horror come not ’till night
when you die among the lonely, the fight.

Petaled rose, willowed trace
try the pose, shake the face.
Kill the night, live the day.
Horror no more till it’s torn of the night
death among the lonely, the fight.

Drawn back between the time
and they speak, “fine, just fine.”

[laebedahs]

Upon the sun
the moon has shown
a side never seen
Its wrath
Its hate
has blocked the light
a cast of its silhouette

Oh, yes, the sun, wait!
it can retaliate!
Its pride
Its warmth
has blocked the night
a glimpse of days to come.

And remained the water, untouched
the people, untouched
yet no more the moon will see.
For there has come and gone
this eclipse once again.

[laebedahs]

On the willowed rose I pace
darkness fading, never haste.
Face the terror, scream the name.
Look and ponder, ne’er the same.

Darkness is grave
Terror banished.
The sun has won
And the moon, none.

But Wait!
Scream the name
Sun Sun Sun!
Fire the eyes of tonight
or stay the same.

Or stay insane
And burn the bright
darkness the sun
Moon Moon Moon!

Light nor dark exists
and still it is insane.
No haste, no terror
scream no more.
And Die.

[laebedahs]

The Holy Flies
they are a-speaking
tell me, “die die!”
“Get off this mortal coil!”

And me, I stop the leaking.

Remind me of the white fires
when they once danced across;
into the opening, the void of today,
I will travel ‘cross the white fires
And into the night.

My journey has come to an end
the life of free-flowing nature, undead
Break the cycle!
Sequence no more!
And Fade.

The Holy Flies are dead.
The leaking continues still.
I did not stop it.

And in my hand I hold their instrument of death:
A flyswatter.

[Sun_Sparkz]

yin and yang was brilliant, i read that one more than once. well done and keep it up, youv'e inspired me to post some more

[laebedahs]

Thanks Sun Sparkz. I think I wrote Yin and Yang when I was either 17 or 18. It didn't have a title back then. I later decided on "Yin and Yang" as the title because the sun and the moon must both exist, otherwise balance would not be.

[xoxoxoBruce]

Some are dark, most are simple, some are short, and some are off the wall.

That describes all good poetry. Yours is very, very good.
I like them all, but "There She Goes" and especially "Cold and Broken" blow my skirt way up.


PS- I think there's a mistake in the 10th line of "Cold and Broken".

[laebedahs]

Corrected. Thanks Bruce.

"Blow your skirt up" - I don't understand the metaphor. Care to elaborate?

[xoxoxoBruce]

In 1955 there was a movie called "The Seven Year Itch", in which Marilyn Monroe enjoyed standing over a ventilation grate for the subway. When a subway train would pass through, it would cause a great rush of air to blow up her skirt and her skirt up. She loved it and the men loved to watch it.
Hence the expression "Whatever blows your skirt up" meaning whatever you enjoy or makes you happy.

[laebedahs]

Wow I'll have to watch that.