Liver and Cherry

[richlevy]

I've said a prayer for you. Since I don't say that many prayers, this one should get noticed.

For anyone Jewish, this is the start of a New Year. It sounds likes it's the start of a new life for you.

[orthodoc]

How are you doing, Sundae?

[Sundae]

Nearly finished my course of Chlordiaepoxide, should get anti-alcohol medication this afternoon (Baclofen). Also had two high vitamin injections into my butt, which hurt like butt-ery.

Feeling okay just sleepy and drowsy and a little unstable physically. Managed to work through it, but had my shifts been much longer I may have fallen asleep in the middle of serving a customer cheese.

No physical cravings, but such a sweet tooth. Will have to take a photo before I become the size of a house.

Trouble is I thought because they were hospital prescribed they would be free. Nope. The Chlordiaepoxide came in two different doses, so two different prescriptions, as did the injections, then today I have a horrible feeling they'll hit me with more for the Baclofen. I know you can't put a price on health but when it gets to the choice between health and catfood it's getting a bit much.

Is it me, or do all my drugs sound like Dr Who villians?

[Sundae]

Oh I was right. Had my third vitamin shot this afternoon. OW!
And got Baclofen in wto different doses.

See them next week, but at least appointments are free.
Everyone else in their was drug adicted and in to collect their scripts. Fe't weird.
Doing bertime tonight so if you hear of a zombie invasion in W in Aylesbury it's me having takem my first Toclafane.

Still, got the wherewithal together to colour my hair, something I'd been intending to do for about three weeks - had the boxes and all. Can't take a pic as the 'rents seem oddly to have taken ALL the memory cards?! Bet they only come back with less than twenty between them...

Thanks for all the support public & PM.
I admit I could go to sleep right not, but I gotta wake up and get moving.

[Sundae]

First day of Toclafane.
Went down shop with an old lottery scratcard. Exactly £1 winning (same price as a can of tramp juice). It's too soon to be taking effect but I exchanced the money and walked out.

Wish I wasn't so tired though. And wish I could type stream of consciousness without going back and back and back and still seeing errors after. Closing up again tonight. Yucky. Last night wasn't so bad, because I felt chilled. Fingers crossed tonight, but Saturday is our busiest day and our most clueless staff; no doubt I will will come into the aftermath of a tropical storm. Oh, last night I squirted some D3 (effectively washing up liquid) into an empty olive conatiner to soak instead of D10 - a degreaser. Put it in the dishwasher, had my own little foam party. All I needed was a bikini and some glow sticks.

#1 thing to avoid tonight

Later start tomozz, then back in the evrning for a thank-you for our wprk since opening. On th premises so no alcofrolics, but food and sodr drinks provided.
Berrer than the bag of Jelly Babies I had for lunch today... I need sweets like zombies need brains right now.

Better go. Start at 16.30 and gotta change cats over, pretty myself up and walk into town.

[Sundae]

Forgot to say I'm cold.
I'm always cold.

[Sundae]

Been warm today.
But have been very active and not standing behind an open chiller (day off).
It's nice. Don't worry, I do actually own enough lovely and snuggly clothes to keep me warm during a cold-attack (appropriated some from what Dad was sending to the charity shop!) but I just hate the feeling of it.

Went to Luton on Tuesday. Kept dozing off on the bus.
Saw Dr K (although as she is a consultant shouldn't she be Ms/ Mrs/ Miss K)?
Wasn't all that impressed with my results, despite the fact that pretty much everything apart from my bilirubin has reduced or is actually with normal levels now. She's a hard nut to crack. Talking about liver transplant in two years when I want to hear about now.

Anyway. Went back to Dr R at Tindal today, supportive as usual, despite having the same results. He's just a Doctor, but after all he is an addiction specialist. He's put me on Disulfiram (antabuse) - yay! Can't pick up the prescription until Monday afternoon so all weekend I can treat myself to things like Baileys Cheesecake and Sherry Trifle, and mouthwash. No, of course not... payday's not until Friday

It's a suck it and see as to how sensitive I am.
If I consume an alcoholic drink I IB be very very ill. And I hate to puke more than anything, as my Christmateers will attest. But if I am super-sensitive I might even have to watch skin products/ perfumes etc.

Got sober brown hair for the occasion.
Well I was kinda blonde by accident anyway, but it needs cutting and a cut always means a new colour.
A change for a change for a change this time.

[glatt]

I'm glad you're marching forward, Sundae.

[Big Sarge]

It sounds like the sun is peeking out from behind the clouds. Proud for you, girl. I hope you are not going to be too sensitive

[Sundae]

Originally Posted by Big Sarge

I hope you are not going to be too sensitive

OMG I read today about clitoral enlargement.
There is definitely a thing as being too sensitive.

Oh you mean the drugs.
Meh - no different than strict vegetarians or people following a diet for allergic or religious reasons.
I'll just have to be more careful.

Would be a bugger to get ready to go out (it happens about once a year), spray on some perfume and then have the symptoms of a banging hangover almost immediately though, and have to cancel.

[monster]

Originally Posted by Sundae

Saw Dr K (although as she is a consultant shouldn't she be Ms/ Mrs/ Miss K)?

Not in the US, and I heard the UK was following suit.

[Sundae]

If all the consultants accessed via the holding pen were Doctors I would have made that connection too.
Instead there was a mixture. Maybe it's filtering through. Maybe it's the old gender-bias. If she's Mrs/ Miss/ Ms K then she might be perceived as a filing clerk...? Not after a minute of conversation though.

Things are certainly less formal.
Back when I was still a troubled teen (hormone issues, not alcohol!) I had to be introduced to a Consultant by a Nurse. He - always he - would then not look at me for a while, shuffling my papework and telling it facts disguised as questions, "So I see you were referred by..." "You've already seen my colleague..."

"I'm not sure I understand why you are here." Oh that was addressed to me, eye contact and all. Funny that, Mr whatever your name is. I didn't ask to be taken out of school during my favourite afternoon of lessons of the whole week (why couldn't I miss Physics?!) to be treated like a malingerer when I was actually here as a result of blood tests and your learned colleagues.

Oops. Old hurts.
Gosh, hospitals/ referral units actually have improved in my lifetime, even if they don't clean them anymore. Now it's just a health gamble. Which it always has been, really. Back then belittlement was mandatory.

[Clodfobble]

Originally Posted by Sundae

Back then belittlement was mandatory.

Heh. At my University's health clinic there were only three diagnoses: you were pregnant, you had an STD, or you had an eating disorder. It was a running joke among us to see if you could get them to suggest all three in turn before actually getting a legitimate evaluation of your symptoms.

[Carruthers]

Sundae...

Your travails with the medical profession jogged my memory.
The 'diagnosis' starts at the one minute mark. There's another clip from the same series that I'm looking for, but this one will do for the time being:

[Carruthers]

Further to my last.

I can't find the video clip I was looking for, but I did stumble across this transcript. It's somewhat two dimensional so I'll have another look for the video.

DOC MORRISSEY:

Do you find you can't finish the crossword like you used to, nasty taste in the mouth in the mornings, can't stop thinking about sex, can't start doing anything about sex, wake up with a sweat in the mornings, keep falling asleep during '"Play For Today"?

REGINALD PERRIN:

That's extraordinary, Doc! That's exactly how I've been feeling.

DOC MORRISSEY:

So have I. I wonder what it is? Take two aspirins.