Why oh why?

[DanaC]

why does nobody ever ask me out? Okay....I shall amend that....Why oh why does nobody who isnt thirty years my senior and three bottles of wine drunker than I am ever ask me out?

It's not something that was bothering me particularly, until my ex (Judah) brought it up tonight.

He ws visiting his bro in London a few weeks ago, and his bro (John) asked after me (me and John were quite close when Judah and I were together.... kind of considered being unfaithful with him, but never went through with it).

He wanted to know if I'd had anyone else since me and Judah split up....and the answer was no. He asked Judah why not?


So.....Judah and I got together to watch some sci-fi he'd downloaded as we do maybe twice or three times a week and he relays his conversattion with John, to me.

Judah and I lived together for about 12 years or so....since we split up 4 or 5 years ago, he's had one serious girlfriend and two not so serious girlfriends....me? no one. Not that I am looking for anyone, but frankly nobody has asked.

I consider myself to be relatively pretty. I certainly don't consider myself to be ugly. Five years ago, I couldn't walk down the street without some guy making a comment or looking back over his shoulder when he'd passed me by.....now....I think it's probably three or four years since a guy even noticed me walking by. The only time I am noticed is when I am interracting with very troubled, older men in a professional capacity, and I think that's just basic transference.

Now....don't get me wrong, I am not looking for love....I am happy as I am and if it crosses my path then so be it....but I have to wonder, since the question has been asked of me....why ? Why in nearly half a decade of being single has nobody actually propositioned me or asked me out?
All of a sudden I am wondering, if I have been wrong all these years in assuming I'm quite pretty. Am I really so unattractive that no guy is interested? Why, when I had a relationship was I fighting off offers? Was it just that I was so much younger then?

Anyway. It doesn't really matter much, but it's something to tax my mind whilst quietly drunk. I suspect I will, in thirty years, be a single, dotty, dog owning history professor.....and that's ok.....but I'd quite like, just once in a while to be asked...ya know? Maybe I have just reached that 'invisible age'.