Not much time left...and I miss my parents... - Page 2

footfootfoot · 04-25-2011, 02:29 PM

I used to miss my parents too. Then a friend told me I wasn't leading them enough...

jimhelm · 04-25-2011, 02:30 PM

and you have to allow for windage

footfootfoot · 04-25-2011, 02:42 PM

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Originally Posted by jimhelm

and you have to allow for windage

Practice makes perfect! PULL!

Big Sarge · 04-25-2011, 02:31 PM

Wait a minute. She said her mother died giving birth to her and her father died when she was 16.

footfootfoot · 04-25-2011, 03:21 PM

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Originally Posted by Big Sarge

Wait a minute. She said her mother died giving birth to her and her father died when she was 16.

To lose one parent may be regarded as a misfortune, but to lose both parents looks like carelessness.
(Lady Bracknell)

infinite monkey · 04-25-2011, 02:32 PM

That's not what she said elsewhere. She said they lived in another state. It started my whole "what's your story" questions in gawd knows which of the hundreds of threads she started, which were never answered.

pensive pam · 04-25-2011, 02:35 PM

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Originally Posted by infinite monkey

That's not what she said elsewhere. She said they lived in another state. It started my whole "what's your story" questions in gawd knows which of the hundreds of threads she started, which were never answered.

yes, they live in a different state. i am in NY, they are in NJ.
what do you lack to understand??

footfootfoot · 04-25-2011, 02:42 PM

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Originally Posted by pensive pam

yes, they live in a different state. i am in NY, they are in NJ.
what do you lack to understand??

Mr. Infinite lacks credulity to the understandingness.

Trilby · 04-25-2011, 02:33 PM

Don't let the facts get in the way of a good story.

Undertoad · 04-25-2011, 03:11 PM

Pam, have you been officially diagnosed?

Do you attend therapy?

pensive pam · 04-25-2011, 03:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Undertoad

Pam, have you been officially diagnosed?

Do you attend therapy?

Yes. i have been diagnosed with a personality disorder, anxiety neurosis, depression, and bi-polar. I do attend therapy, and take medications. my condition hopefully explains my passive/aggressive behaviour (or so they tell me.)

at times, i just go nuts. it's not something i want to do; and it is very difficult for me to controll. but i will try harder. if i see someone who is homeless or hungry i will offer to buy them a snack or whatever i can afford. i have a very kind heart. but then there are times when i 'snap' for no reasons. like when i saw the pretty girl on the train holding flowers. and i wanted to smash them because i never get flowers. but that would not be fair to her.

at the same time the thought was in my mind until she got off the train. and i keep staring at her perfect pretty face and body. I was jealous and angry.

Wishig you the best Mr underoad,
Pam.

monster · 04-25-2011, 03:23 PM

People, you have to understand that none of the life examples Pam gives are intended as factual statements.

Undertoad · 04-25-2011, 04:11 PM

That's excellent, going for therapy! Good job by you.

When you're in therapy, do they give you suggestions on how to manage it when you "snap"?

pensive pam · 04-25-2011, 04:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Undertoad

That's excellent, going for therapy! Good job by you.

When you're in therapy, do they give you suggestions on how to manage it when you "snap"?

Well, i have 'breathing techniqes' theye have taught me. also 'immiging' techniqes as well. I try to focus on my 'happy place' in my brain. so a lot of it is mental exercize.

i also need to be more carful to take medication at propers time. that is a very big factor. i also need to not drink wine. that is a key trigger to my mood.

thank you for a wonderful sight,
Love Pam.

morethanpretty · 04-25-2011, 04:57 PM

Pam, I am writing you a reply because I think what I have to say is important. But before you read, I want you know one thing. A lot of what I have to say will sound very mean, but I am only being 100% honest.

The reason why some of us might think you are troll is because your responses are erratic, you are offended very easily and blow things out of proportion, and you post a lot of threads about yourself and then get angry for us talking about you. If you are a really the way you say, than I am sorry for baiting you, but your actions are very suspect so it is hard to take you seriously.

My advice, if you want it, is to stop posting/reading The Cellar. Not because I do not want your input, but because I think it is bad for you. You do not need to do so for forever, but take a break. 6months or a year. You are not alone in this, many dwellers here have had to take a break when they were having mental issues. You have admitted to having mental issues, and you are not coping well at this time. Thats normal, you are under a lot of stress. That being said, it is hard enough to judge a person's true intent in real life, it is 50times harder to judge their intent on the internet when you do not have body, face or voice cues to help you discern their meaning. Therefor, I think you should take a break from online interacting. I think you are having a hard time understanding people's intent, and online you need to have the ability to stay calm and rational. At this time, you are struggling with that and you need to time to gain mental stability. Again, many of the posters here have had the same exact issue and had to take a break. You are not the only one.

Next, if your parents are good people, and able to help you out, then forget the job in NY and move back in with them. I, myself, have had to move back to my parents more than once due to medical issues. There is no shame in that. If living with them will help you have less stress, then do it. You need to focus on your mental health and do whatever it takes. Mental diseases are extremely difficult to control, it takes time, and most people do not understand them very well. Give the medicine time to work, almost all meds I've used for depression took months to a year to be truly effective, even meds for other diseases like Rheumatoid Arthritis can take a long time to work well. Do not give up on the meds, take them!

Last, STOP DRINKING! The type of meds you are probably on do not work well with alcohol. If you truly want to get better, do not drink alcohol at all.

Again, I know this will probably upset you, but believe it or not, I mean it to help you. Concentrate on getting better, take a break from online interaction. I wish you the best.

Please take time to really think about my message. Even take it in to your therapist if you have to and see what their opinion is if need be.

04-25-2011, 02:29 PM	#1
footfootfoot To shreds, you say? Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: in the house and on the street-how many, many feet we meet! Posts: 18,449	I used to miss my parents too. Then a friend told me I wasn't leading them enough... __________________ The internet is a hateful stew of vomit you can never take completely seriously. - Her Fobs

04-25-2011, 02:30 PM	#2
jimhelm a beautiful fool Join Date: Sep 2010 Location: 39.939705 Posts: 4,504	and you have to allow for windage __________________ There's a Shadow just behind me. Shrouding every step I take. Making every promise empty, pointing every finger at me. _tool

04-25-2011, 02:31 PM	#4
Big Sarge Werepandas - lurking in your shadows Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: In the Deep South Posts: 3,408	Wait a minute. She said her mother died giving birth to her and her father died when she was 16. __________________ Give a man a match, & he'll be warm for 20 seconds. But toss that man a white phosphorus grenade and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.

04-25-2011, 02:33 PM	#9
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	Don't let the facts get in the way of a good story. __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

04-25-2011, 03:23 PM	#12
monster I hear them call the tide Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Perpetual Chaos Posts: 30,852	People, you have to understand that none of the life examples Pam gives are intended as factual statements. __________________ The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

04-25-2011, 02:32 PM	#6
infinite monkey Person who doesn't update the user title Join Date: Mar 2011 Posts: 13,002	That's not what she said elsewhere. She said they lived in another state. It started my whole "what's your story" questions in gawd knows which of the hundreds of threads she started, which were never answered.

04-25-2011, 03:11 PM	#10
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	Pam, have you been officially diagnosed? Do you attend therapy?

04-25-2011, 04:11 PM	#13
Undertoad Radical Centrist Join Date: Jan 2001 Location: Cottage of Prussia Posts: 31,423	That's excellent, going for therapy! Good job by you. When you're in therapy, do they give you suggestions on how to manage it when you "snap"?

04-25-2011, 04:57 PM	#15
morethanpretty Thats "Miss Zipper Neck" to you. Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: little town (but not the littlest) in texas Posts: 2,957	Pam, I am writing you a reply because I think what I have to say is important. But before you read, I want you know one thing. A lot of what I have to say will sound very mean, but I am only being 100% honest. The reason why some of us might think you are troll is because your responses are erratic, you are offended very easily and blow things out of proportion, and you post a lot of threads about yourself and then get angry for us talking about you. If you are a really the way you say, than I am sorry for baiting you, but your actions are very suspect so it is hard to take you seriously. My advice, if you want it, is to stop posting/reading The Cellar. Not because I do not want your input, but because I think it is bad for you. You do not need to do so for forever, but take a break. 6months or a year. You are not alone in this, many dwellers here have had to take a break when they were having mental issues. You have admitted to having mental issues, and you are not coping well at this time. Thats normal, you are under a lot of stress. That being said, it is hard enough to judge a person's true intent in real life, it is 50times harder to judge their intent on the internet when you do not have body, face or voice cues to help you discern their meaning. Therefor, I think you should take a break from online interacting. I think you are having a hard time understanding people's intent, and online you need to have the ability to stay calm and rational. At this time, you are struggling with that and you need to time to gain mental stability. Again, many of the posters here have had the same exact issue and had to take a break. You are not the only one. Next, if your parents are good people, and able to help you out, then forget the job in NY and move back in with them. I, myself, have had to move back to my parents more than once due to medical issues. There is no shame in that. If living with them will help you have less stress, then do it. You need to focus on your mental health and do whatever it takes. Mental diseases are extremely difficult to control, it takes time, and most people do not understand them very well. Give the medicine time to work, almost all meds I've used for depression took months to a year to be truly effective, even meds for other diseases like Rheumatoid Arthritis can take a long time to work well. Do not give up on the meds, take them! Last, STOP DRINKING! The type of meds you are probably on do not work well with alcohol. If you truly want to get better, do not drink alcohol at all. Again, I know this will probably upset you, but believe it or not, I mean it to help you. Concentrate on getting better, take a break from online interaction. I wish you the best. Please take time to really think about my message. Even take it in to your therapist if you have to and see what their opinion is if need be. __________________ Addicts may suck dick for coke, but love came up with the idea to put a dick in there to begin with. -Jack O'Brien

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