I wish I was great

[Spexxvet]

I, the born underachiever, dream of accomplishing great things to help the world improve. But I know I won't. I embrace knowing that I won't do much, probably mostly due to my aversion to risk. I have achieved moderate success as a boy/young man, but now, mediocrity is my milieu - my peers from that time are either economically significantly lower or higher than I, which leaves me in the .... middle.

I truly believe that I could have been at least a middle manager in the corporate world if I had been willing to do despicable things, but no I was not willing to do them.

I am riff-raff. I am the rag-tag proletariat. I am pedestrian. No one has high expectations of me, and I fulfill those expectations in an exceptionally average way. Sometimes it's liberating, sometimes frustrating. Sometimes I dream of what I could do, if I were exceptional, but usually I am glad I don't have to do those things.