I'm Jim, and I'm a Compulsive Overeater

[LJ]

Originally Posted by xoxoxoBruce

Oh hell, that's an easy one. Jinx is god(ess) and you're going straight to hell if you don't shape up.

I know you are joking here, but this actually touches on something that I was thinking. I think I was using jinx as a higher power, or as my conscience.(Hugely unfair of me, btw) Knowing all the while that I could fool her. As long as she didn't ask me directly if I ate at mcdonalds, I wouldn't get caught. And she never asked me.

I should be able to be honest enough to myself to see that what I'm doing is counterproductive to my goal, and stop that behavior. It shouldn't be ok if no one else knows. I know. I am the boss of me. I have to do the right thing because it is the right thing. Not because I'm trying not to get caught doing the wrong thing.

I see it now, today, and I hope to be able to maintain focus on that.

[xoxoxoBruce]

Originally Posted by LJ

I know you are joking here, but this actually touches on something that I was thinking. I think I was using jinx as a higher power, or as my conscience.

Yeah, I was. But you know, when I don't have to answer to anyone else, I can rationalize like a motherfucker.

I don't think a Deity is the answer. Your goal is not to contol your eating, to lose weight, become a better person, or world peace... your goal is your family. I don't mean be a slave to Jinx and the kids, you're part of the family too. But in every action/decision, ask yourself, is this best for my family.

You've had a shocker, like going to pee in the morning and finding your dick fell off. You're smart, it won't take you long to figure out how to pee sitting down.

[lumberjim]

Originally Posted by squirell nutkin

That being said, your higher power could be just that: YOUR higher power. Your highest expression of self...

the image and essence of what I CAN be. The goal.

Originally Posted by squirell nutkin

Some reading material worth picking up is a great book called "No more Mr. Nice Guy" by Dr. Robert Glover. It's not a book about being a prick, it's about how men learned to be adaptive and pleasing as kids out of fear of displeasing loved ones and thereby become secretive and dishonest in their relationships as adults. After reading the book, it was a real eye opener to me.



I gotta go help the kids, more later.

will read that, asap.

Originally Posted by xoxoxoBruce

I don't think a Deity is the answer. Your goal is not to contol your eating, to lose weight, become a better person, or world peace... your goal is your family.

^this^

I agree, the weight is a secondary issue....tertiary even. Main issue being repairing my disconnect with reality, second being the security and future of my family. I only put my sanity first because I have to do that before I can effectively do the other.

eyes open wider every day

[classicman]

Originally Posted by lumberjim

the image and essence of what I CAN be. The goal.

Main issue being repairing my disconnect with reality, second being the security and future of my family. I only put my sanity first because I have to do that before I can effectively do the other.

eyes open wider every day

The "journey without end" has begun.

Excellent!