I hate you

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Syc (if I may refer to you as such),

I realize I'm not the center of attention around here, but my low self-esteem often leads me to believe such commentary is directed at me. I know I act like I don't care what people think of me, but deep down I really do. I have made more than a few un-PC racial slurs in my posts. If I "extremely dislike" several people of a particular race (or belief system) who seem to be poster children for the stereotype associated w/ their group---as opposed to HATE them---am I still a 'racist'?

As I've mentioned to another fellow Cellarite, I strongly believe that I'm a product of my environment. As cop out-ish as this sounds to some, my experience has proven it to be quite a valid statement.

I like your idea of 'redirecting ones hatred into written form'. Maybe that's what I'm doing in my posts. Maybe the Cellar isn't the place to do it. I wonder if putting it down on paper would wane ones "hatred" if no one else read it? I'm thinking if no one ever sees your thoughts or views you've written down than you are basically left to ponder your thoughts alone. They may as well be kept in you head then which can lead to an even greater hatred as your mind fills w/ thoughts constantly ramming the inside of your cranium. If others are able to see your written thoughts this opens you up to criticism which is very thought provoking and usually leads to discussion and communication which I think could eventually lead to a waning of your original issues of hatred.

Does any of this make sense or am I just rambling on in effort to justify my un PC-ness and rationalize why I basically don't care for people in general (you know like Quzah who has stated "it's" hatred of everyone)? This might also explain why I have so many animals (they basically love me for who I am even if I am an asshole)

By the way, I think they are "racists" too, they don't like Chow Chows.:p