Why do I feel SAD?

Come on, Brianna! Weren't you telling us all in another thread that you got an A plus on your English paper? Doesn't sound like someone incapable of learning to me! And so what if a bunch of little 18 year olds who need their diapers changed cop an attitude because you can participate more intelligently in a class discussion than they can? Screw 'em!

And a lost dream is still a loss. Its O.K. to grieve it. The dude sounds like a horse's ass, anyhow. Grieve the loss and get mad as hell at the son of a bitch who led you on to live with him in hallucination world. Anger can be wonderfully life affirming at times. Just ask me. I've made it through the past few months just on sheer rage produced adrenalin alone!

Check with the courts and see if you can't have your record closed. Sometimes they'll do that, depending on the circumstances. There are also employers out there who will specifically hire people with a felony in order to give them a second chance. Your local voc rehab folks should know of such programs in your area. Almost every state has such programs.

There are any number of medications available for depression, as I'm sure you are aware. Consult your doctor. If you are taking an anti-depressant, obviously its not working and you need to switch. Also, consider getting EMDR which will help you with any symptoms of PTSD you may have.

Hang in there, girl!