I keep trying to be happy

[monster]

Originally Posted by xoxoxoBruce

If happy sneaks up on you treat it like a coffee break, relax and enjoy knowing you might as well because it won't be long before it's back to the grind.

I don't think I've ever taken a coffee break in my life, I don't do relax, and that's exactly the problem..... the minute I realize I'm happy and then remember it doesn't last, I'm not happy any more

[xoxoxoBruce]

No breaks? That is a problem.
I always looked at life as short bursts of happy or sad/angry between long periods of neutral. Neutral meaning doing what has to be done each day but knowing the routine and how to handle it so no sweat. Might even call it boring.

You've had your responsibilities doubled at a time when all the kids are doing the college turns life upside down transition. I'd love to say someday you'll look back and laugh but more likely you'll look back and say how the fuck did I do that. The kids will give lip service but can't fully understand how stressful it is for you.

I'm pretty sure you can do this, I wish I could tell you how other than one day at a time.