Mental Health

[bbro]

I am feeling better today. Not much of an appetite, but I at least got some sleep. I don't remember any dreams though, which is odd. I used music to drift off and was able to sleep some.

I figured out why I can't get to sleep. It may sound weird, but when I go to sleep, I go off into a fantasy/daydream world and drift off from it. It's better than just laying there trying to stop all the thoughts from the day. Turns out, I can't do that anymore. Hopefully, this isn't a permanent thing. What would I do without my imagination? I think this is the first time in my life there aren't some scenarios running through my mind when not occupied. It's unnerving.

I am more interested in food than I was yesterday afternoon/this morning. I am taking that as a good sign.

I don't feel as out of it as I did yesterday. That is another good thing. I don't really feel like doing anything, but it's Saturday

Hopefully, this will keep getting better as I get adjusted to the medicine.

I am currently looking for a different office. The thing is, I have already gotten the worst stuff out already. I am just not as motivated this time around. I also have A LOT of other things going on right now. Other doctor's appointments, court dates, interviews. I just can't seem to find the time to do it all. I don't get PTO, so I have to work extra every time I take some time out of work. Just adds to the stress I am trying to alleviate.

It's all just a big circle, it seems