Devastated - Totally Destroyed

[Big Sarge]

Thank you for the warm wishes. I apologize. I had a knee jerk reaction when I received the letter and I blurted out my feelings. I am one of those people whose self esteem is centered on their work. That's my way of being validated and it is because of the neglect I experienced as a child.

This past year has been devastating to me. I was wrongfully fired from my job that has led to a long drawn out court battle. Access to my two youngest girls has been limited due to baby mama crap. I started mixing meds with alcohol. My health took another turn for the worse and I've had chemo and surgery. I admit I have become very reclusive.

Well, I don't have any other choice. I have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and see what happens on this journey. I sincerely apologize for the drama. I have shared far too much and I need to keep more things to myself.

I'll be taking a little break from the cellar. I'm ok, no one needs to worry. I will check in from time to time.