October 12, 2012 - Bluebird of Happiness

[CaliforniaMama]

The good news is I made my deadline (sort of, in a cheating sort of way, but it will fly) and the bad news is that the Year of H-E-Double-L just got a new wind.

I had a lousy childhood and a pretty messed up young adulthood, but then it seemed like the scale of life was balancing out.

Had kids the hard way (adopted) and it seemed I was paying dues all over again and now the rug's been yanked out from under me. This is just not what I expected, you know?

I know this isn't the place to dump, but I keep my pecker up everywhere else, so thank's for letting me vent a little.

(Hubby went off on a mid-life crisis mixed with a bipolar episode for a year and a half, with a walk on the wild side south of the equator, and now that he is mentally returning to himself his freedom-loving therapists are all about him "finding his true path." I guess 25 years of bliss, re-enhanced and re-inforced at every turn with omens of every flavor, isn't a good enough path in their eyes. It's not hubby I'm worred about so much as it's the therapists convincing him he wants something "better." He's a bandwagon kind of guy and heaven only knows which wagon he'll land upon. I'm just feeling a bit raw right now, and oh so tired of being yanked about.)