How much pain?

[OnyxCougar]

Originally posted by xoxoxoBruce
I understand what he did although not why. The thing that I really don't understand is why he ever woke up again?

Because at the time I wasn't ready to stand up for myself. I had such a low self esteem (and I was so friggin stupid at the time) that I believed him when he said this was normal for "girls like me" and that I was so ugly and fat that I would never get anyone else. He was good at the mind games.

He dumped me for a co-worker. I just went to California to live with my sister. I think sometimes, had I killed him (which would have been completely justifiable at the time), he wouldn't have killed Steven. So yeah, I carry that around, too.

OC, I assume this guy is somewhere far away now?

Much of the story.