Do you wear shoes?

[Shawnee123]

I have angioedema. Have since college. I have the "no particular identifiable and therefore avoidable" cause.

Right now it is affecting my hand. What this means is I bumped it or my sleeve touched it for too long in just the wrong way. If I lay on my ear the wrong way and it starts to itch, it can close nearly shut from swelling. The heat my body generates from working out turns me into a giant hive, only angioedema affects a deeper layer of skin, and is not so transient.

It also affects my feet, especially my feet. Say I have a pair of shoes that are "broken in" but I haven't worn them in a couple weeks. Doesn't matter. If I wear them for a day they will be touching my skin in a spot it's not used to, which causes painful swelling and itching that I can only imagine is like a million fire ants biting my skin. My feet have been so swollen I can't walk, and doing so feels like my feet are BallPark Franks and are ready to split.

So, I wear the same black or brown shoes, the same tennis shoes, most of the time. I never have pretty feet or pretty shoes. I will always look like some orthopedic nightmare.

But I'm feeling pretty horrible about me right now. I'm relieved I guess that I am not the only ugly feet girl. I won't even get pedicures, what's the point. Not to mention my giant ugly pores.

I have very few friends. I find most people just wait until they can hurt you, then they do. They lie. They find your weak spots because you trust them. They will stab you and kill you when you aren't looking. They want you to lose your self-esteem and crumple into a ball and die.