I'm in the Hospital

[Sundae]

Juniper I learned today that one of the reasons I dislike my myself so much is a physical issue I had no choice about and can do virtually nothing about anyway.

It might be at the root of my depression, almost definitely at the bottom of my alcohol problem and undeniably the reason for my low self esteem. And finding this out hasn't helped at all. At least not yet, I just have to hope it will in future.

Please consider counselling. Not because you're "broken" in some way. Just because unless you understand why you over-achieve you might lose all of the things that are so important to you. And by lose I mean the ultimate loss. You might deny your children a mother and your husband a wife because you die young.

Hope that doesn't sound like I'm being a Premium Rated Bitch. But it would be worth it if you considered what's driving you and what yo uneed to address in order to slow down. Of course it might be simple and you can recognise it yourself. Good luck either way.