The Wise Alchy Sage Retires

Sundae · 01-23-2008, 05:52 AM

Well it's been over three weeks now, which sometimes sounds laughable, and sometimes sounds like something I should get a standing ovation for.

I've been to two AA meetings - I'm courting them for when my current group therapy finishes in 2.5 weeks time. The temptation is still very much there and I don't want to be cut loose with no help as I fear I will listen to the drink voice in my head once the structure of three weekly meetings finishes.

On the one hand I do not want to be 22 years sober and still be attending AA like on of the women in the meeting last night. On the other hand if I can walk down the street mourning the fact that I will never surrender my conscious mind to alcohol again I obviously still have work to do. As I was walking home last night I was seriously considering going to buy some Night Nurse as someone at the meeting mentioned coming off alcohol and getting hallucinations from necking a bottle when she was ill. I thought it would be an interesting experience and after all HM would never know I knew it contained alcohol...

Ahem. Have to remember that managing to hide it is only succeeding in lying to myself. I have more self respect than that and I have pride and dignity. Or at least I'm committed to the idea of fake it til you make it.

Hope everyone else is doing as well as they intended.

01-23-2008, 05:52 AM	#22
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Well it's been over three weeks now, which sometimes sounds laughable, and sometimes sounds like something I should get a standing ovation for. I've been to two AA meetings - I'm courting them for when my current group therapy finishes in 2.5 weeks time. The temptation is still *very* much there and I don't want to be cut loose with no help as I fear I will listen to the drink voice in my head once the structure of three weekly meetings finishes. On the one hand I do not want to be 22 years sober and still be attending AA like on of the women in the meeting last night. On the other hand if I can walk down the street mourning the fact that I will never surrender my conscious mind to alcohol again I obviously still have work to do. As I was walking home last night I was seriously considering going to buy some Night Nurse as someone at the meeting mentioned coming off alcohol and getting hallucinations from necking a bottle when she was ill. I thought it would be an interesting experience and after all HM would never know I knew it contained alcohol... Ahem. Have to remember that managing to hide it is only succeeding in lying to myself. I have more self respect than that and I have pride and dignity. Or at least I'm committed to the idea of fake it til you make it. Hope everyone else is doing as well as they intended. __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

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