Divorce

[Deuce]

Fear.




F alse
E vidence
A ppearing
R eal

Fear is a *POWERFUL* motivator, and no one is immune. Not me, not you, not my wife, not our children.

Have you ever been to the ocean? To the beach? I have many times, and it's a beautiful place. The beauty of the ocean can distract one from the power of the moving water. Power to crush and kill. Fear is like that. It has the power to overwhelm, and lately for me, it comes over me like big ocean waves.

When I'm overtaken by one and being maytagged along the bottom, it feels like impending death. Hopeless. Each time (so far) I have managed to come up for air between waves, and to catch a little break or a reality check, between sets.

I just broke the surface of the last monster to crush me, and the salty air never tasted so sweet.

Someday, I hope to reach the shore, intact. I'll settle for being able to breathe for right now though.