I'm not done...

Trilby · 05-15-2008, 10:33 AM

..though I'm sure many of you wish I were.

the radiation--it's not even close to how bad chemo was but it's EVERY goddamn day. I feel good though, I do.

i am just so pissed off that I let myself wide open for this disease. I blame myself. I never ask "why me?" I only ask, "why was I so dumb?"

glatt · 05-15-2008, 10:38 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Brianna

i am just so pissed off that I let myself wide open for this disease.

What are you talking about? You did nothing to bring this on yourself.

I'm sorry the treatments are still ongoing, but you are kicking this thing's ass. Each and every day, you kick it a little harder.

Shawnee123 · 05-15-2008, 11:09 AM

I'm curious as to why you think you brought this on yourself, too.

Keep on keepin' on, Bri. You're doing great.

Cloud · 05-15-2008, 11:11 AM

WTF? Bad Brianna!

There's not much we can do to avoid cancer 'cept maybe live in isolation on a mountaintop somewhere and drink spring water and eat leaves.

barefoot serpent · 05-15-2008, 11:38 AM

perhaps if you had a time machine, you could go back and jump into a different gene pool...

lumberjim · 05-15-2008, 11:54 AM

just don't go 'born again' when you come through it all, k?

DanaC · 05-15-2008, 12:04 PM

Ye just got dealt a shit card, Bri, and you're a good enough player to play it out of your hand. Get a grip, hon, seriously, ain't no room for self blame on this. That would be appropriate if you'd jumped fully-clothed into a cold lake and were now pissed that the pneumonia was hanging around too long.

Recognise that this is just you beating up on yourself, looking for stuff to attach blame to. I usually smile to myself when I find myself doing it. A 'Caught m'self in the act' again kind of a smile. Thing is...in your case, I reckon it might be easier, more comfortable to focus that blame and scrutiny on yourself than on some almost indefinable thing that's being done to you, such as radiation. Just...keep a bit of yourself aware that's what you're doing, it helps limit the damage :P

elSicomoro · 05-15-2008, 12:06 PM

It's already happening, chica. No need for blame, just get through and get better. That's all you can do.

Flint · 05-15-2008, 12:07 PM

Cancer isn't like AIDS, which God gives you as punishment.

elSicomoro · 05-15-2008, 12:08 PM

WTF?!

Flint · 05-15-2008, 12:11 PM

Sorry, my social acceptable-ness died in the WTC on 9/11. You insensitive bastard.

xoxoxoBruce · 05-15-2008, 05:07 PM

@Brianna, how do you know this is a medical necessity, and not the lab techs just wanting to experience your awesomeness, every day?

footfootfoot · 05-15-2008, 05:29 PM

Brianna brought this on herself by choosing to be a mammal instead of a reptile, insect, or bird. It was her choice.

Always read the fine print.

Undertoad · 05-15-2008, 07:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Cloud

There's not much we can do to avoid cancer 'cept maybe live in isolation on a mountaintop somewhere and drink spring water and eat leaves.

Eating leaves causes total fucking cancer.

However Bri did make the mistake of living in an era when it can only be cured, not prevented.

Sundae · 05-15-2008, 07:47 PM

Brianna let men touch her dirty-pillows.
God didn't make them for that, he made them for the hungry babies.
Therefore she brought it on herself.

Anyone with illness does. Otherwise why would people pray for intercession if they weren't asking God to overturn his original ruling?

Kick (him) in the cunt Brianna.
No deity has the right to do that to your knockers.
Unless of course it's just random cells, doing their random cell thing. Because evolution expected us to be dead by this age anyway (after spawning 13 offspring). You know what? Kick the cells in the cunt too.

Hope things are feeling less like your fault by the time you read this x

05-15-2008, 10:33 AM	#1
Trilby Slattern of the Swail Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 15,654	I'm not done... ..though I'm sure many of you wish I were. the radiation--it's not even close to how bad chemo was but it's EVERY goddamn day. I feel good though, I do. i am just so pissed off that I let myself wide open for this disease. I blame myself. I never ask "why me?" I only ask, "why was I so dumb?" __________________ In Barrie's play and novel, the roles of fairies are brief: they are allies to the Lost Boys, the source of fairy dust and ...They are portrayed as dangerous, whimsical and extremely clever but quite hedonistic. "Shall I give you a kiss?" Peter asked and, jerking an acorn button off his coat, solemnly presented it to her. —James Barrie Wimminfolk they be tricksy. - ZenGum

05-15-2008, 11:09 AM	#3
Shawnee123 Why, you're a regular Alfred E Einstein, ain't ya? Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 21,206	I'm curious as to why you think you brought this on yourself, too. Keep on keepin' on, Bri. You're doing great. __________________ A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones who need the advice. --Bill Cosby

05-15-2008, 11:11 AM	#4
Cloud ... Join Date: Feb 2007 Posts: 8,360	WTF? Bad Brianna! There's not much we can do to avoid cancer 'cept maybe live in isolation on a mountaintop somewhere and drink spring water and eat leaves. __________________ "Guard your honor. Let your reputation fall where it will. And outlive the bastards!"

05-15-2008, 11:38 AM	#5
barefoot serpent go ahead, abbrev. it Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: Lawrence, KS Posts: 2,623	perhaps if you had a time machine, you could go back and jump into a different gene pool... __________________ Chooses rowing vs. wading

05-15-2008, 11:54 AM	#6
lumberjim I can hear my ears Join Date: Oct 2003 Posts: 25,571	just don't go 'born again' when you come through it all, k? __________________ This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality Embrace this moment, remember We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion ~MJKeenan

05-15-2008, 12:04 PM	#7
DanaC We have to go back, Kate! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Yorkshire Posts: 25,964	Ye just got dealt a shit card, Bri, and you're a good enough player to play it out of your hand. Get a grip, hon, seriously, ain't no room for self blame on this. That would be appropriate if you'd jumped fully-clothed into a cold lake and were now pissed that the pneumonia was hanging around too long. Recognise that this is just you beating up on yourself, looking for stuff to attach blame to. I usually smile to myself when I find myself doing it. A 'Caught m'self in the act' again kind of a smile. Thing is...in your case, I reckon it might be easier, more comfortable to focus that blame and scrutiny on yourself than on some almost indefinable thing that's being done to you, such as radiation. Just...keep a bit of yourself aware that's what you're doing, it helps limit the damage :P

05-15-2008, 12:06 PM	#8
elSicomoro Person who doesn't update the user title Join Date: Jan 2001 Posts: 12,486	It's already happening, chica. No need for blame, just get through and get better. That's all you can do.

05-15-2008, 12:07 PM	#9
Flint Snowflake Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Dystopia Posts: 13,136	Cancer isn't like AIDS, which God gives you as punishment. __________________ **************** There's a level of facility that everyone needs to accomplish, and from there it's a matter of deciding for yourself how important ultra-facility is to your expression. ... I found, like Joseph Campbell said, if you just follow whatever gives you a little joy or excitement or awe, then you're on the right track. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Terry Bozzio**

05-15-2008, 12:08 PM	#10
elSicomoro Person who doesn't update the user title Join Date: Jan 2001 Posts: 12,486	WTF?!

05-15-2008, 12:11 PM	#11
Flint Snowflake Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Dystopia Posts: 13,136	Sorry, my social acceptable-ness died in the WTC on 9/11. You insensitive bastard. __________________ **************** There's a level of facility that everyone needs to accomplish, and from there it's a matter of deciding for yourself how important ultra-facility is to your expression. ... I found, like Joseph Campbell said, if you just follow whatever gives you a little joy or excitement or awe, then you're on the right track. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Terry Bozzio**

05-15-2008, 05:07 PM	#12
xoxoxoBruce The future is unwritten Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 71,105	@Brianna, how do you know this is a medical necessity, and not the lab techs just wanting to experience your awesomeness, every day? __________________ The descent of man ~ Nixon, Friedman, Reagan, Trump.

05-15-2008, 05:29 PM	#13
footfootfoot To shreds, you say? Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: in the house and on the street-how many, many feet we meet! Posts: 18,449	Brianna brought this on herself by choosing to be a mammal instead of a reptile, insect, or bird. It was her choice. Always read the fine print. __________________ The internet is a hateful stew of vomit you can never take completely seriously. - Her Fobs

05-15-2008, 07:47 PM	#15
Sundae polaroid of perfection Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: West Yorkshire Posts: 24,185	Brianna let men touch her dirty-pillows. God didn't make them for that, he made them for the hungry babies. Therefore she brought it on herself. Anyone with illness does. Otherwise why would people pray for intercession if they weren't asking God to overturn his original ruling? Kick (him) in the cunt Brianna. No deity has the right to do that to your knockers. Unless of course it's just random cells, doing their random cell thing. Because evolution expected us to be dead by this age anyway (after spawning 13 offspring). You know what? Kick the cells in the cunt too. Hope things are feeling less like your fault by the time you read this x __________________ Life's hard you know, so strike a pose on a Cadillac

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