Peace of Mind

[freshnesschronic]

"let me tell you something jc, you will never know what girls want because they themselves do not know. you dont NEED to solve their puzzles, or interpret signals, what you need is a girl who doesn't play games, a girl who will honestly tell you how she feels,and most importantly a girl who will help you and allow you to make her happy. if you do find this girl, or maybe you already have, then congratulations...otherwise, don't blame yourself man, people will only be as happy as they allow themselves to be, regardless of what others do for them...any type of relationship takes work, but remember that its a give-and-take"
-AD

This is a brilliant thought from one of my friends, let's call him AD. It's really helping me get through these hard times that I have made numerous posts on "Relationships" about. I'm only 19. Each day I get less and less attatched and I feel more and more excited for next year when I get a house with 4 of my other friends and we host parties and the girls come to ME! Hahaha, ok that made me seem like a douchebag I know but seriously. I'll get to meet new people, be more FREE, instead of restricting my thinking. This year, my freshman year I sacrificed, thinking she'd come join me next year. Didn't plant any seeds with any "prospects." Since I'm already accepting that me and my girl probably won't work out in the end. We think differently, about education, values, and relationships it seems. Love truly isn't enough. I've found complicating factors can make a relationship so unhealthy that sometimes love just can't prevail. She probably won't go to U of I anyway. And we both know we can't do the long distance relationship much longer. For example, she hasn't called me all day, and it's 10:27 PM right now. If I called her she'd just snap and say "I was gonna call you tonite, oh my GOD!" But right now I'm like whatever. I got my own stuff to do, can't wait for her any longer sometimes. I need to startint living my life.

I just know that whatever relationship I get into next, I will NEVER give out my love so easily and will NOT rush things the way I did with her.
I think I've searched and have found that piece of mind, that gives me, well, peace of mind.