Thanks all. I have enough to manage for a few months. No real plan. Just feeling defeated, sad, angry... stupid - all that grief shit. Gonna take a few days/week and try to get a grip on moving forward.
Part of me thinks this is due to what happened with my son - as irrational as that might be. I had two jobs in 46 years. Since then I've had 5 in 5. I'm beginning to realize/think its me.
Damn shot to the gut.