When I was in 2nd or 3rd grade the kids in the neighborhood taught me a "game" called "N***** Knocking". You know, knocking on doors and running away.
I had no idea what the N word meant. I just thought it was the name of the game. It was a short-lived game we only played a couple of times and I quickly forgot about it.
It wasn't until I was in my early 20's that I made the connection and was very ashamed. But really, can you really blame a child using a word without knowledge of the meaning and context of the word.
I would not consider myself rascist, though I have used the word a quite a few times. Even somewhat recently when quoting people and in discussion about the word itself and the cultural baggage attached.
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