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Raised by a single parent mom, you know, you don't worry about showing your emotions

When I was a kid I read something about some study showed that men holding back crying was a tremendous tension and lowered their life span

I think I read that when I was 8 or something

And now I realize that it was not so very scientific but was reported because it was the zeitgeist of the time

We were in a time when both the tragedy of war and the new reality of a better and longer life were becoming apparent

Actual toughguy men who were previously needed to do terrible gruntwork were no longer in high demand

Now we were needed to evolve and become leaders by doing thinking work in offices

Then I was born and my father died and I was raised by mom and watched as she cried and cried

I could not help but learn to cry myself at the terrible sadness of life

I am sometimes as sensitive as that little child.