Sometimes it was hard when she was acting against her own well being. Couldn't be angry with her, even when she was obviously fucking up, because she was such a free spirit. Tell her she shouldn't be doing something and she would readily agree, then keep doing it. Since we never met, following her exploits here in the Cellar, plus a lot of personal correspondence, she was like a television character that you know so well, but not quite real. Television characters get into jams but always make out OK by the end of the show, or at least next week.
A genuine loss for the world.