[Griff]

It sounds like you want him to leave for a bad reason in case someday he leaves for a reason closer to reality. If thats the case, I think you can beat this thing if you embrace that knowlege and just convince yourself that you are tough enough to handle whatever comes. I used to work a variation on this, obsessing on the doors that close with a long term comittment instead of looking at the positives. ymmv