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Old 02-27-2012, 03:50 AM   #246
Big Sarge
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Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: In the Deep South
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I'm morphing and have been for several months. Last year until the late fall, I couldn't kill anything. My deer camp experiences were mainly setting cameras and managing food plots. I was bitten twice by dogs that I should have shot becaused I tried to capture them to take the dogs to the shelter. Then I began to change. I've found I can kill again and it doesn't phase me. I can skin & process hides without a thought. I guess in some ways I am returning to normal?

I wonder if it is because I've been out of a combat zone for almost 2 years and I admit the last tour was fairly easy. Or, are the raised doses of benzodiazepines removing my inhibitions? In some ways it scares me because I am finding I can kill (not just hunt) without it affecting my emotions. Scary to wonder if I am going back to where i can kill "anything" and not have it phase me.
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