sorry foots
My stone is being bummed by beest not being here. Life is so hard emotionally without him. I'm going through the motions, I can do the things, trying to fake it til I make it. but it's all so empty. And life keeps throwing more and more shit at me like if I eventually have enough to deal with I won''t have anything left to mope with and I'll suddenly snap out of it and figure it out. Rather than suddenly snap.
I am getting more sleep since my job ended, but now I'm dreaming and those are scary and upsetting. At the end of my job, we had to take everything in the store -all the fixtures, fittings, electronics, stationery, everything out of our offices etc and put it on public display. Nothing super personal, so not a bit deal (although weird because I'd been in my office for 5 years). Last night I dreamed the team did that with all my personal possessions