just thinking out loud here...
you're my friend and I feel bad for you man. being angry can, sometimes, be a productive, rational response. I don't know your circumstances just now exactly, but it doesn't really sound like this is the useful anger...
I've been down a very similar road. I'm ahead of you in that regard. Man, let me tell you this,
it does get better (cliche'). But it's true. My experience with feelings like this, man, it was horrible. I fucking hated it.
I used to be all
Quote:
"Gunface"
Rolling Stones
Gonna go downtown
Gonna get my gun
Gonna dress real sharp
Gonna beat my drum
I ain't gonna lie
Gonna walk so slow
Gonna talk just right
And my diamond ring
Gonna shine so bright
I ain't gonna lie
I've got a debt to repay
I ain't gonna cry
I put a gun in your face
You'll pay with your life
And I got my ears
And I got my eyes
And I got my narks
And my alibis
I won't waste your time
You made one false move
You made one mistake
When the juice is squeezed
That's the way it breaks
You'll pay for your crime
Your tongue lickin' way out of place
I'll rip it out
I'll stick a gun in your face
You'll pay with your life
I taught her everything
I taught her how to dream
I taught her everything
I'm gonna teach her how to scream
I taught her all she knows
I taught her how to lie
I taught her everything
I'm gonna teach her how to cry
And you cause me hurt
And you cause me pain
And you turned the tap
On my burning rage
And I can't put it out
Gonna leave no sign
Gonna leave no trace
Gonna leave this town
In a state of grace
Give me the power
I got a debt to repay
I ain't gonna lie
I put a gun in your face
You'll pay for the crime
I taught her everything
I taught her how to speak
I taught her all she knows
I taught her how to eat
I half invented her
And now she acts so chic
I taught her everything
But now she's obselete
I taught her everything
How to read and write
I taught her all she knows
She was a neophyte
I taught her everything
I loved to watch her grow
I taught her everything
And now I want to see her go
I taught her everything
I got a debt to repay
I ain't gonna cry
I'll put a gun in your face
You're playing with your life
I taught her everything
I taught her how to cheat
I taught her all she knows
She was so indiscreet
I taught her everything
I taught her how to lie
I taught her everything
I'm gonna teach her how to cry
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This is my song now.
Quote:
ROBERT CRAY
"Laugh Out Loud"
I can look back now at all the years
I paid my dues
Every broken heart, every dead end
All those blues
It don't matter now
The tears I've waded through [?]
I can laugh out loud
I ended up with you
I can laugh out loud
I ended up with you
I can laugh out loud
At all the times I failed the test
Lost someone
And came out second best
I can see now
I had to learn a thing or two
I was practicing then
To get it right for you
Ohh, I can laugh out loud
Life and love
Ain't it a mystery
This road I've struggled down
Has thrown some curves at me
Who would have guessed
The grand-prize would be mine?
This late in the game
This far down the line?
I can look back now at all the years
I paid my dues
Every broken heart, every dead-end
All those blues
It don't matter now
The tears I've waded through
Ohh, I can laugh out loud
I ended up with you
I can laugh out loud
I ended up with you
Ohh, I can laugh out loud
I ended up with you
I can laugh out loud
I ended up with you
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... shit, lunch break's over. back later man. hang in there.