Thanks guys. I'm trying so hard. I don't see why no one gets it. Besides my friends.
Jebus I'm sick of my stomach roiling. But I can't just quit. I will lose so much money...not just wages but my 200 hours of vacation they have to pay me when I leave (unless I walk out) and any chance to get unemployment.
I would end up cashing in my pubic (sic....on purpose) employees retirement but it has to be 3 months since termination.
I am seriously losing it. I thought I could do this. But it keeps getting worse and worse. And I am trying, I am trying so fucking hard. Have I mentioned how hard I am trying.
I'm fucked.